A few years ago I lit my spark. I woke up. The challenge ever since is to stay awake, and keep the spark lit. That 's not easy. When life is hard we often get pulled into its darkness. Self doubt and worry creep into our souls like rain pouring into a poorly thatched roof. Keeping the spark lit means staying in the light , letting our lamp reveal a book of knowledge that grows like a strong wind to blow away those rain clouds. And using what we learn to keep the thatch of our souls strong and tight. Our Light stays lit by paying attention and finding the inspiration we need to source such a life. This was the year I learned that among other these things.
1. Truth - We Show Others How To Love Us!
So, it turns out that "Miss Independent " the queen of "I got this" "I don't need anybody to help me" actually wanted and needed help sometimes! You can't carry that message and then wonder why no one came through for you. I took responsibility that people let me down because my actions told them to. I let everybody off the hook by never asking and acting like I had it all figured out and then felt angry and abandoned when once again I was doing everything on my own.
I realized the truth about how I wish to be loved and treated and how important it is to forge partnerships and alliances based on that truth. Once I brought that newly discovered truth to the outside and made sure the way I am perceived is in alignment with what I really desire then all my relationships became more authentic. When I dropped that mask expectations and outcomes were no longer the priority. My connections felt easier , more natural and became about the day to day honest enjoyment of them. Authentically showing people how I want to be loved makes me feel free and stronger. And my bonus when I finally got real was all that awkwardness and anxiety I often felt with others has disappeared from my life. * Always be honest about what you want and how you want to be loved.
2. Words - Choose Your Words Carefully
This was a lesson learned years ago but finally almost mastered. We are judged and condemned and praised by our words. Words said to others can cause a hurt that is not easily forgiven, forgotten or undone. Words are so very powerful and I am in love with words. I am wordy and talky and I write. So words are even more important and often carry more impact from me. When I was an angry and wounded woman I used words to hurt and cut and slay others. My words were destructive used to belittle and offend. I have learned my words have greater impact when used to empower and teach, heal and comfort. I learned to use words for creation not destruction. And I have learned that the most important words we speak are not to each other but to ourselves. I speak to myself with love and honor and create a scared space of safety in my own opinion of me. * Use Words To Love and be loved.
3. Energy - Is Your Power
All the energy spent on gossip and drama and worrying about trivia is better spent on productive things. All the energy we spend on wearing a mask and hiding our true agendas so that others will like us and perceive us a certain way is better spent on seeking honesty in ourselves. Energy is precious. It is our life blood our source and supply. When we spend it on superficial trivialities we become powerless. I learned to be very careful how I spend energy. I learned to protect and honor my energy and its power supply. I realized I am happiest when my energy is spent on things that give me power. Things like seeking the truth of who I am, learning about myself, being creative, enjoying natures beauty and connecting to the source of our creation replenishes my energy and keeps it from depleting. I learned I need that precious power to live joyfully and create the life I want!
*Energy is best spent on authenticity and most rewarded there.
4. Forgiveness- Is About Freedom
Forgiveness isn't about the other person and whether or not they deserve forgiveness. It's about loving yourself enough to let go of anger and let go of the grudge. Wanting a better life for yourself than living in anger, fear, frustration and darkness. When I forgave certain people in my life it did more for my self worth than anything else I have ever done because it made me free to love myself and others with a generosity I never could before. I learned what is means to truly "let go" and be in a space of vulnerability where we authentically connect.
* Forgiveness is about how much you love yourself and your ability to love others.
5. Light- Sources the Journey
Light cures all. Everything in the dark is distorted, clothes thrown over a chair become a monster as things shape shift in shadow. Its the same in your mind. The things we keep in the dark are much scarier and larger than they would be if we flick on the lights. In fact when brought to light some of them never were really even there! Shine light on those deep places and when you see what is real and what is an illusion it is shocking. Things in the dark are often more powerful in the distortions we create there. In light they become less frightening and more manageable. We can overcome anything and heal all things with light. So put light everywhere. Shine so bright you light others darkness. But never let anyone dim your own. When I am sad or headed to the dark I picture light pouring into my head and all through me.
* Light cures and heals all life carry it inside always.
6. Illusions - Not Everything is as it Seems
I learned a great deal about illusions this year. I learned the biggest illusions in our lives are when we think that something is our security when it is really our restriction. We often never see the things that are holding us back from living our true purpose! I closed a business which I sourced my life from on every level For years I thought that it was my security and could not imagine a day without it. But the universe led me in another direction of a more heart based endeavor. As my soul woke up and my heart began to stir my need to do spiritual work grew. I realized with shock that what was my security was in reality my restriction. Never in a million years would I have believed it to be so. But once my ego released the illusion of security and my heart saw the restriction, a new life was created out of my new conciousness. Believe me this was the biggest battle and hurtle I have ever gone through. The death of ego is brutal. Facing the truth about a false belief makes you feel groundless at first. But the universe guided me as I co created with it. Soon I had a life that was in alignment with my awakening. By merging my earthbound real estate business into another firm I was free of the restriction that did not allow the time to pursue my Reiki and Readings. After awhile it became apparent that a lifetime of legendary success in the business world when combined with my psychic gifts would be used to coach others on their life path. I learned that everything life brings us is for reasons revealed in time. This taught me to look closer, deeper and find the real meaning and to have courage to break through the illusions. Because as painful as the process is when broken they set us free.
* Illusions when broken give us freedom to live a better life
7. Trust - Sometimes .. Surrender Is All You've Got Left
# 6 taught me #7. I've always said "I don't know how to do anything I just DO IT". But this past year and going through my lesson of sustenance and changing the way I define myself through work taught me I don't have to know everything. As I closed one door to open another I learned about trust. I went through so much change and reorganization this year that there was a period of being totally groundless. But I learned that when you have no foundation and you are left groundless that is where you find the truth. I remember for about 2 months straight my stomach felt like I was literally falling as the chakras in my physical body took on my emotions. That told me big stuff was happening and that this was an important time for me. I needed to make these life changes alone because I knew there were lessons in the disassembling of the person I used to be and the construction of who I was becoming . I could allow no other person to be in this space with me. I knew their help would dilute the lessons the universe wanted me to learn. And so struggling to take apart desks alone at 3 am and negotiating leases and logistics while feeling nostalgic and devastated and hopeful and excited and exhausted and exhilarated with no one to share it with became profound. I had initiated it all by myself and now I was seeing it all through. Left to only see 3 feet in front of me instead of planning miles ahead I was left with no choice but to surrender. I needed to feel every emotion to know without any doubt I was doing the right thing. I learned there is a higher source in charge and when I surrendered ( after much kicking and screaming) to Him things seemed to go pretty well. As things unfolded for the better I was able to trust more. As painful a process as it was to let go it was all vital in creating the trust I now have in surrender.
* Always know the universe has you fully supported .
8. Fear of Being Alone
Yes it is unnatural to be alone. But if you fear being alone you will find your life enslaved to that fear. You will put yourself places and with people who will restrict you and cause you pain and heartache because you accept less than you desire and deserve. We make poor choices when we are motivated by fear and the avoidance of fear, we make healthy choices when we are motivated by love. This year I have spent more time alone than at any other time in my life . I had to figure out somethings (see #1 ) and when I understood #3 I became very selective about who and where I share energy with. I was alone in quiet contemplation quite a bit. I found myself having fun alone and enjoying my own company. I felt lucky backpacking around Fire Island alone or enjoying a delicious dinner solo. In fact I felt so lucky doing these things I didn't notice I was alone. I had finally become so comfortable in my own self that I no longer feared being with only me. I learned loving someone and being in a life partnership starts with truth and being truthful with yourself. * You can't be truthful to yourself when you are in fear. So be in love with yourself first.
9. Inspiration - The Force of Source is Love
This year I learned that I am not inspired by money or a pretty face or possesions or promises. I have learned that I am inspired by connection. I am inspired by love. I have learned that paying attention and opening to the universe gives us an unlimited source of love which often comes from the most unexpected places. I have learned I can't function at full potential without that inspiration. This past year my most significant inspiration came from ordinary people facing extraordinary life challenges every day. Being in the energy of Reiki inspires me. When I see people reach out for help and know the bravery it takes I am inspired. And when people have offered me a hand just when I thought I would break, I am inspired. When I meditate or do yoga and feel one with the universe, in that bliss I am inspired. It is the soulful connections of life which inspire me. I am lucky because my inspiration is now authentic. I am grateful because I was able to have the bravery and strength it took to find that. That has inspired me. I have learned very simply that...
* To love and be loved is my inspiration
I hope my life lessons help you on your journey.
Peace and Love,
Spiritual Healer, Energetic Medium
This Blog is the story of the miracles, challenges and lessons of my life journey. Years ago when I hit a personal "rock bottom" my despair led me to seek answers and my quest for truth began. Amazing events propelled me on a spiritual journey of transformation.. Miraculously, through these experiences my life has become my teacher and my friend.... I hope my words connect us and allow us to walk together for a time as teacher and friend to each other. The most valuable thing we have during this human experience is our connection to love. The love in our soul for a higher power and others is the only thing that is real. I honor these connections through my writing. Theses words are my gift inspired through the heart of Spirit for you. I hope by sharing my journey it will enlighten, inspire and ease yours as it does mine >> ... Peace... Georgia Rose