I find myself silently observing patterns of my own behavior that have been in motion for a lifetime. This current energy, so intense has brought much to the surface and yet, now eases up a bit. But has it eased up, or just shifted gears to get us to our destinations a bit less worse for wear? Maybe the heavens just realized we needed a pit stop to inflate our tires and check the oil. As Venus and Mars form a quincunx this week the energy may feel less harsh and not as powerful, but I suspect it's just another illusion, served up by these strange cosmic forces. The summer of power seems to be dishing out surprises of a different flavor this week. It is curiously sweeter.
It's a free dessert that was sent over, but not on the menu. A tasty little surprise that tempts us to dig in. Honey to the bee! Even though we are not quite sure what it is going to taste like, based on appearance alone our intuition tells us to grab a bite and enjoy. This feeling doesn't come often, so lets relax and take advantage of it!
But there is no FREE dessert - everything has a price...
Don't think because things seem a bit less tense that nothing is going on. Karma is always in motion. Sometimes it is more powerful below the surface than when it is acting out above.
There is much brewing in this seemingly calm week. This energy is building for the Full Moon and eclipse on July 27th. Our lives are changing drastically this summer and for most of us this clearing and changing will lead to better things. Trust that!
In the meantime there is a tide flowing in each of us and although it may seem calmer over the next few days it is still moving and bringing debris and sand and memories and imprints and creatures to the surface. The tide has slowed not stopped, to give us the chance to observe what it is dredging. What parts of us are being made tender and what events hold messages for us. Swim with your guides and Angels to see what is in this water. Don't be afraid of its depth, the tide has calmed so you can see the bottom clearly and swim in it for awhile. Get used to what is there , take it out and play with it over the next few days. It will bring you clarity as you remember the past and integrate it with who you are NOW.
There in lies the work this energy is asking of us. To look at what and who we have been before and apply it to who we are now. It is only the now that matters. So let's use this window of clarity
to see truth and also to see our future. The future we will create for ourselves by releasing the past, forgiving ourselves and others and becoming stronger in this new light and calm waters.
The waters will rage again, but we will be better prepared if we have done this work to open our hearts further to be the warriors of our future. We can have it all, if we look at where we have failed to give it to ourselves and take back the power to do so.
Never did this become more apparent than yesterday.
Yesterday, I received some unexpected news about a very long close connection of mine planning on moving away in the future. I got panicky and sad and started to cry. I actually wanted to bolt! I was out with my boyfriend when I got the news and I just wanted to get away from him and be home alone. I was truly in a state of anxiety and trying to hide it so he wouldn't think I was overreacting. I just wanted to run somewhere and be by myself so I could process this unexpected development. I could feel the anxiety building, and my mind racing but I didn't want to show any of my feelings. His mere presence started to annoy me, I was so uncomfortable. I wanted to bolt!
By the time I got home I had resolved that these emotions were coming in rapid fire to show me something. Georgia, there is a karmic pattern here coming to the surface, what is it ... I asked myself. Why is your flight or fight kicking in, now? I put on some meditation music and started to cook dinner while my partner was in another room and outside picking veggies from our garden. I took a moment to breath and dive down into emotions that scared me. It was not easy - it was very uncomfortable. I wanted to ask my boyfriend to go home. I wanted to be alone. I wanted to have a big ugly cry and woah is me party. I realized this was my pattern. When I feel loss or the threat of loss I want to push people away , go home and isolate. Be alone, so I am not threatened by intimacy which always results in loss and more of this horrible feeling...a big huge circle of fear and loss , fear and loss... It comes from a life long Karma of abandonment and incredible grief.
I reasoned with myself that I didn't really want Chris to leave what I really needed and wanted was to go towards my fear and bring in love as its antidote. Have a nice dinner and quite conversation and feel our intimacy without fear. I needed to relax into the "real" which is love and stop denying myself the very thing - in fact the only thing that would heal me- love.
In my kitchen on a normal sunday as I cooked the sauce, I had clarity of such depth that it was in fact an epiphany - yes a break through. When you shut people out you feel dead. Fear deadens us! Numbs us and makes us empty. I lived in fear too long. I missed a lot of dinners. I sent a lot of people home. I didn't always answer the door. I didn't join in. I didn't participate in many things. Fear destroys us if we let it. It seeps in slowly until it controls us. That age old fear of people around me is tied to loss and grief. I thought I was over this. I thought I was filled with love, not fear. But here I was back in the sandbox with my old playmates. For a few minutes that made me angry. Then I forgave myself...and got on with it.
Georgia I told myself....".People will always come and go but if you push them all away in fear of loss you will never find the very thing you seek..love...someone who may stay. And even if they don't stay, so what ,open yourself fully to have it all while they ARE HERE other wise you are guaranteed nothing. Isn't it better to just be in life full throttle than running away from everybody all the time?" Enough is enough.....And I relaxed and I had a beautiful simple dinner with someone that I was going to send home. We laughed and snuggled and watched TV after and it felt like a life. Yes, life. A life I once blocked for many years.
This weeks energy is about what is happening under the surface. KARMA IS IN MOTION! As Mars is still retrograde and the moon is lining up for a huge event on the 27th the tides within us are building. But use the calm of the next few days to look below the surface at what is starting to churn within you. This energy of the cosmos provides love to shed light and reconcile our Karma. Our lives are changing and we need to actively participate in those changes to create our future. Do not allow the changes coming to spin your life out of control.
This week the summer of power shows us that we have the quiet yet powerful strength to shift our perceptions. It does this to get us ready for the bigger changes coming. So observe what comes up with love and don't push it down. Take it out and reinvent it as a cog in the new wheel that moves your life forward. Venus and Mars are showing us what we truly value and the love of those things is deeper than these old patterns and gives us the power to change our Karma. Peace and love Georgia Rose
Spiritual Healer, Energetic Medium
This Blog is the story of the miracles, challenges and lessons of my life journey. Years ago when I hit a personal "rock bottom" my despair led me to seek answers and my quest for truth began. Amazing events propelled me on a spiritual journey of transformation.. Miraculously, through these experiences my life has become my teacher and my friend.... I hope my words connect us and allow us to walk together for a time as teacher and friend to each other. The most valuable thing we have during this human experience is our connection to love. The love in our soul for a higher power and others is the only thing that is real. I honor these connections through my writing. Theses words are my gift inspired through the heart of Spirit for you. I hope by sharing my journey it will enlighten, inspire and ease yours as it does mine >> ... Peace... Georgia Rose