I often talk about the “army of angels” that saved my life. There have been many and of course, there are more to come. These beautiful strangers lit my darkness at a perfect time and place ordained by Spirit to connect us to the web of life. I suppose you could say I was at rock bottom when Jackie my yoga teacher, and Adrienne my spiritual counselor became two of the first “angels” to come along on my journey into enlightenment. The practice of yoga opened me to alignment my body, mind and inner being never knew before and I opened further to energy and spirituality. When fate combined that with spiritual guidance it accelerated my connection to Spirit in a life changing way. I was then, still in despair and deep sorrow from the events that led me to rock bottom that I started my swim to the surface. I began seeking light instead of wallowing in my darkness. Around that time another “angel” came along in 2011. Her name was Kathryn Barley and her light was so bright that her beautiful curly blond mane seemed to catch its every fraction. Her smile was wide and deep and all-knowing and it captivated you and dragged you in to a curious place where questions and answers flowed into wisdom that was as abstract as it was simple. When you looked into her eyes you just knew beyond a doubt that all of her and all of it was clearly meant just for you. She was that special kind of magic!
It wasn’t until her death that you realized a few hundred people probably all felt the same way. Kathryn was ours and she belonged to each one of us but in truth she was freedom and belonged to none of us except the earth and the sky. She had been completely unattached to this world up until the time Father Sun and Mother Earth called her to another place where her light was needed to better serve all of us.
I have had many teachers and many beings of great value share my journey. Each one was orchestrated to elevate and enlighten me on some energy or healing that was another step on this gorgeous stairway to divine mastery of my life. Some have come and gone quickly and others have walked with me for a longer time. None is more important than the next as they are all a solid step to something I needed to witness. Each one taught a different class in my life school. There was feisty Anna who taught me about soul contracts and Karma and helped me reconcile the wounds of my father. There was Damaris who taught me about divination with Tarot Cards and important lessons on discernment. There was a very earthy “angel” named Terry who taught me about a strange wheel of life influenced by planets and thus awakened my study of astrology, which I cannot imagine living without! There was Steve who came from another compartment of my life to cross over into my spiritual life and deepen my meditations in a very profound and healing way. An acquaintance, named Lisa introduced me to a strange and powerful thing called Chakras, which completely changed my game. There was a man named Jim who taught me we CAN communicate with beings on the other side when after a visit with him one afternoon I felt like I had spent the day with my dead parents….because I DID! A completely connected soul named April first introduced me to my beloved St Germaine. My friend, Tom opened me to a realm of beings I had not felt before that expanded my healing and deepened my reconnection to the energy and web of life. There is my dear completely unconventional Shaman Al who taught me unconditional love with his deep and profound medicine wheel. And another Shaman Thelma who attuned me to the 9 Rites of Munay Ki from the indigenous ancients and made me a keeper of this planet. As you can see my journey has been a profound and beautiful tour arranged by God to show me all I need to know at perfect moments. To be loved so much is the greatest gift any soul could ever know. It astonishes me to understand that we all can travel thus if we open to it. Yet out of all this beauty one woman stands out among the rest for me. Kathryn Barley.
I came to Kathryn a sorry brat. A baby. A woman in despair who just wanted her life back. A woman scorned, a child abandoned, a broken soul desperate for peace. I was at rock bottom. I had started to swim towards some light doing yoga and engaging in spiritual counseling. I was determined to change things and get better but I had no idea how to do that. I was a blindfolded woman in a classroom full of obstacles left to stumble around in the dark for an opening. Kathryn flicked the light on and untied the blindfold. She saved me from years of “pin the tail on the donkey” effectively showing me where my own ass was. I eventually emerged from her influence to be a healer, a prophet, and a lightworker.
The first time I went to her for a healing she looked at me deeply and said, “You’re a teacher”. “No”, I replied, “I’m a realtor”, thinking she had me confused with someone else. She just threw her head back blonde curls swaying and said “Ha! I love it” and led me down the hall to her healing room. I was a clueless soul in infancy, completely unaware of her startling and impending impact on me.
In the months and years to come Kathryn became my teacher, my Guru, my Reiki master teacher and my guide both earthly and otherwise. She gave me my Reiki attunements the second one so intense I had to wait an hour before I could drive home. OH – she was powerful. Often her words or healing affected you long after you were no longer in her presence as they still do today for me. Her energy aligned greatly with the divine feminine essence of Mother Mary and she often did monthly channelings of Mother Mary that were very popular and intensely healing for many.
Kathryn came to be aligned with this beautiful and amazing energy of the Divine Mother after she was led to a pilgrimage to the Shrine of Our Lady at Medjugorje in Bosnia where the blessed mother appeared to her in an apparition. This started her journey as a healer and teacher to many souls. She eventually went on to start a seminary in Huntington The Sanctuary of Peace and Harmony which her twin sister Connie now officiates.
Kathryn was the first and one of only a few select beings who have been inside my soul. Yes, when she attuned me I felt her essence enter me. She is the only being on this earth, now crossed over to do that and as such she is now a spirit guide for me. I often invoke her energy and call her divine feminine essence in to my Reiki circles and when I need guidance she often comes to me.
I have many stories of Kathryn’s impact on my life as well as an amazing story on the day of her death. There are also many stories about how she has stayed in touch with me since her passing through signs and feelings. But last week’s happening is the most recent one I want to tell you about.
Last Saturday I went to a sound healing and angel channeling event held by my friends Rick and Dana. That morning Kathryn was on my mind and I had an amethyst stone with me that she gave me several years ago, at one of her Mother Mary channelings. I keep that stone with me often and use it in my energy healing sessions sometimes. It is small enough to fit in my pocket and it reminds me of the deepest, most painful and most beautifully intimate parts of my journey. The lessons held in that stone are profound in my triumph over them. It is in effect a little piece of soul and spirit and me and Kathryn all in one form. I use violet light often to heal and because I channel St. Germaine amethysts are very connecting to me.
When my friend and I got to the event last Saturday, it was crowded and the only seat left was next to another acquaintance of mine Marie. When I sat down she randomly said to me - get ready I think the Blessed Mother will come through because I feel her today and I picked her card out of my angel deck this morning. I just smiled and kept my knowingness inside. The way Kathryn ‘s “Ha! I love it”, whimsical laughter had done so many years before and so many times while on our journey together. The wise teacher ever so patient with a naïve student, she was always so complacent to watch the journey from her front row seat, with awe and trust in Spirit.
So of course, the channeling and sound healing was profound and deeply healing and yes, the Blessed Mother came through with many other angels and light beings. Afterwards I went into the other room in the shop to look at the handmade jewelry Dana had made for sale. I immediately was drawn to an amethyst bracelet with a large silver St Michael tag on it and it was coupled with another amethyst bracelet which had a very small gold tag that looked like Mother Mary, but without glasses I could not see the detail of that tag. I picked them up and I immediately felt divine feminine energy that reminded me of Kathryn and so I bought them both.
I wore them that day and they gave me comfort somehow. I could feel divine feminine like a cool soothing lighter energy that calmed me and a stronger force of transmutation that was somehow connected to St. Germaine when I wore the beads. In short, it felt healing. This was nice for me because sometimes I buy crystals or other pieces and I cannot wear them because the energy is too strong and my heart races or it opens me to channel when it’s not appropriate to do so. I have found some of my crystals and talismans can only be worn while I am healing or working in the realms of spirit. It was nice for me to be able to enjoy this and made all the better because Dana made it and her pieces speak to me.
I wore the bracelet for a few days even tucking it under my sleeve while at my earth-bound job to be less conspicuous. Which is unusual for me, but I was getting attached to this new piece of energy. It reminded me of a time in my journey when I was first discovering the mystery of Spirit and it made me think of Kathryn who I miss and wish I could still go to. I wasn’t exactly understanding why Kathryn was so prominent in my mind but since it is near the time of her death I figured that was why. Kathryn passed February 3, 2014. Exactly 3 Years ago, yesterday.
On the 4th day of wearing the bracelet I discovered why it did indeed align with Kathryn’s energy. While reading in bed I went to take the bracelet off while still wearing my reading glasses. It was the first time I could clearly see it’s little gold tag. It was the Blessed Mother as I had thought- but underneath was the words Medjugorje and on the other side was the shrine with its twin spires, the place of Kathryn’s miraculous visit and awakening. I couldn’t believe my eyes!! This obscure shrine was staring back at me from this bracelet. Kathryn was indeed speaking to me and showing me love transcends all realms. Her love and comfort on my journey is still as deep as though she were on this earth plane with me today.
My heart was so full in that moment with love for all my teachers and for Dana who made this creation for me to wear never knowing it’s meaning or that it would find me. Yet knowing now it could be no other way. I could picture her working quietly on her creations not understanding just how or who they would touch but trusting that they must be made and would find their rightful owners. Each piece of jewelry is a miracle of creation holding a strand connected to a bigger web. It is her calling. Love and its pure intention become action. She is infusing the world with light through her hands as she touches each bead and crystal.
Kathryn taught me there is a web of life that we are all connected to and she is still teaching me that from beyond this realm. And although this web of life is indeed mysterious and miraculous its existence is nonetheless more real than any other form. I am shown its existence every day in many ways. All the beautiful teachers who have walked with me for a bit to show me love and light in its purest form have been divinely orchestrated to lead me up another step to reach another strand in this web.
Kathryn remains a catalyst still. Her light showed me the existence of the web when she took my hand, entered my soul and brought me to the stairway. As I gazed upon it vast and steep climb I was afraid because its top is shrouded in the clouds. The mystery of its final beauty is hidden in the obscurity of the grey. She stood there with me at the bottom and at the start with her bright light shining and she taught me we are never alone. She taught me to keep climbing and keep reaching for the next strand of the web, she taught me to be part of the matrix that powers our soul. God brings me what I need to understand the journey Kathryn showed me through all my teachers and experiences of this life. Its ever-changing myriad of wonders and opportunities show us all we need to see if we open our eyes to its light.
Most of the time when people transition into “death” and are no longer with us we feel the world grow a little darker. But Kathryn’s death seems to make the world shine brighter. Her light is spread further and wider than it was when she was in human form. I am grateful to all my many teachers but I am especially grateful to Kathryn Barley whose light I and many others still bask in. That is quite a miracle. The miracle and the teaching of Kathryn Barley.
Kathryn once told me during a teary eyed session when I was filled with much sorrow and loss-“Friendship transcends ALL” . I did not understand then, but I do now. Thank you for your beautiful friendship , my friend.
Till we meet again….
Peace and love,
Spiritual Healer, Energetic Medium
This Blog is the story of the miracles, challenges and lessons of my life journey. Years ago when I hit a personal "rock bottom" my despair led me to seek answers and my quest for truth began. Amazing events propelled me on a spiritual journey of transformation.. Miraculously, through these experiences my life has become my teacher and my friend.... I hope my words connect us and allow us to walk together for a time as teacher and friend to each other. The most valuable thing we have during this human experience is our connection to love. The love in our soul for a higher power and others is the only thing that is real. I honor these connections through my writing. Theses words are my gift inspired through the heart of Spirit for you. I hope by sharing my journey it will enlighten, inspire and ease yours as it does mine >> ... Peace... Georgia Rose