My journey of self- discovery has ebbed and flowed on the ocean of Spirits whim. An unpredictable force that has jostled me over its rock and dragged me in to its briny depth. It has hoisted me over its waterfalls and thrown me down its watery cliffs. I have rested in the calm pools of Angels hands and I have swirled in torment on the rapids of resistance. But always, always the waters of Spirits whim have been against my back, His waves guiding me home. I have cursed and thirsted with equal alacrity forever eager to know the why and the more. And still this continues, in definition of infinity. A limitless journey with no end. I suppose that should intimidate me but instead it makes me grateful for the mere beginning of it. I am humbled that I found its shore and decided to swim. Whether I was chosen or chose, I cannot say but both certainly feel right. I can’t imagine Spirit not offering this gift and I can’t imagine passing it over.
It is such a beautiful life this one of awakening. Even when faced with drowning in its dark abyss the essence of love pulls you onward until you finally and suddenly break the surface where its powerful force has pushed you into the light. The first time that happens you are hooked. Not just on the ride but on the knowingness and peace its salvation has given you.
There is no more heady feeling than being somehow inexplicably saved. Knowing Spirit loves you so much that the Universe has your back and is stronger than any human force. That truth only comes when you break the surface gasping for breath from your dark and terrifying nights. As you shake the tears from your eyes and look around you realize there was never anything to be afraid of all along. It was your own resistance that kept you in the rapids struggling against the tide of destiny. We realize then we should have let go sooner and trusted the current of Spirit’s whim to flow us home. Finally, we learn that maybe, just maybe He knows the river better than we do. And we should start following His clues. The divine breadcrumbs some call signs. Instead we push and paddle and fight against the current of our life’s river. We delay our peace and alignment with the life we were meant to live by thinking we know best. In fighting the current we are trying to remap the river of our life, avoid its experiences and direction as if we could mold its shores to our own whims. That never works try as hard as we do to make it work. In our stubbornness, we waste much time fighting against life when we could be loving life.
My personal journey on these waters is sometimes rather dramatic. No longer afraid of the dark, I surf around and see a lot of things in its depths and I am often rewarded with an “aha” moment when I break the surface into the light. These “aha” moments are eternal messages, like a sonar of the ages peacefully transmitted to those quiet enough to hear.
The most beautiful part of this journey is in sharing these insights with others. Often, they are in synchronicity with similar messages given and received by my teachers and friends. I feel as gleeful as a dolphin then and can’t wait to share my discoveries with all the other beings. The content of the “aha’s” and the sharing of them is love, divine love in its highest form. When I share these experiences with others especially my like -minded friends, the “soul sistas and mistas” that swim the same waters as me - we enlighten and teach each other and spread love and healing. This is our purpose to love and be loved.
My latest sonar message has shown me yet another depth to this ocean of Spirits whim. I realized judgements that prevent me from sharing in this way with another are blocking love. It’s just another way of fighting the current, trying to remap my river, paddling against the tide. Conflicts that block love need more forgiveness.
When we are in true forgiveness there is no judgement of the other or ourselves. There is no blockage and love flows freely.
I realized there are a few people that I had “shut out” because maybe their beliefs were a little different from mine, maybe I judged them negative or not good for me. Maybe I felt they did not serve my higher good. But was that a judgement or a discernment? How do we tell the difference? I asked Spirit.
The message I received is this:
Does the shutting out and shunning of this person make you feel powerful or make you feel love? If it makes you feel love for yourself and the ability to love the other without fear of the experience or interaction of them, that is discernment. Your intention to detach from them is pure and for a higher good. It does not threaten or anger you. It is done in love.
But when this shutting out or shunning makes you feel powerful then you are only trying to shut out the part of you that you fear and that which is illuminated by this person and the experience of them. This is judgement. You think you must slam the door on the feelings that make you uncomfortable and in your haste, you are unaware of the pain you may be causing another being with your actions. Judgement is a reaction to that which you cannot yet love within yourself and in another. It is the part of you that you have brought with you from many lives. This imprint on your soul is a wound longing for healing but you will not allow its remedy. We have sent you an opportunity for healing through the very experience you will not allow. We have sent this to you before and your choice has been the same. You cannot push this so far away that it will not return. It will once again repeat. You fear the destruction of the dam but it is where the water must flow for healing to be complete. You have carried this pain too long to remember its origin but you know its emotion. You blame these emotions for your pain instead of the experience that gave them to you. And so, you fear these emotions and the experience this person brings. Yet, these emotions when unleashed will be your salvation. Your body holds the fear as your soul longs for love. We have given this experience to you to awaken you to the very act that separates you from love. Self-love means loving in entirety and wholeheartedly your light and your dark. It means accepting in others that which you fear in yourself. There can be no darkness where God has created light, so you must allow the dark waters behind this dam to flow into the light. Love yourself deeply and wholly through inclusion in the experience of this healing. Allow the tide to reveal your secrets as the water rages and thrashes you about. Do not fear this river or this experience. Allow your fear to flow into trust for we are the Infinite Intelligence that creates the current of your life. Do you not trust us to act in your higher good?
Know that judgement is a reaction born of power and fear. That which is not love. Discernment is a deliberate action born from love.
My journey on the ocean of Spirits whim continues. I was so grateful for this mornings sonar and the ping that shows me the waters of my journey live on...and on....and will never leave me. The beautiful love that comes from the heart of Spirit to teach us if we only listen.
Peace and love on your journeys
Spiritual Healer, Energetic Medium
This Blog is the story of the miracles, challenges and lessons of my life journey. Years ago when I hit a personal "rock bottom" my despair led me to seek answers and my quest for truth began. Amazing events propelled me on a spiritual journey of transformation.. Miraculously, through these experiences my life has become my teacher and my friend.... I hope my words connect us and allow us to walk together for a time as teacher and friend to each other. The most valuable thing we have during this human experience is our connection to love. The love in our soul for a higher power and others is the only thing that is real. I honor these connections through my writing. Theses words are my gift inspired through the heart of Spirit for you. I hope by sharing my journey it will enlighten, inspire and ease yours as it does mine >> ... Peace... Georgia Rose