It is said the journey from the head to the heart is the longest journey. That may be true. It takes a long time and many miles to merge ego and soul, but it can not be measured by either clock or kilometers. It's length is metered out by the yards of connections that pave the road from cool thoughtful logic to pumping hot emotion and back again. The circular drive older than our incarnation. In fact, as old as creation itself. Our universe all began with a spark of light, created when thought met emotion. All this from that. All that within each of us.
I have been heartless at times. When ego ruled hard from quick cold logic and softer "weaker" feelings were smothered under shovels of heavy conditioning and "supposed to be's". Goals were written for me and never sincere. "Never let them see you sweat", "Be an example" and "There is no such word as can't", "Keep crying and I will give you something to cry about" were the childhood mantras that molded my survival and safe identity. It is natural I developed a steely determination and over achievement that pushed out all empathy. My Father wanted it so. His own fear of vulnerability raised a very strong daughter. Success was gained, goals met, wars won, but I never really felt any of it. I lived only in my head, nothing ever traveled down much farther. I had a road block to the highway of my heart.
Many of us have road blocks. It's not until some lightning strikes our heart that we realize it. Lightning has many properties. It can bring joy or loss, burn or ignite. I suppose our individual " lightning" experiences have much to do with Karma and little to do with the way we think things "should be". You see, lightning is always unexpected and powerful. It's electric and its main purpose is to get our attention and shed light on something before plunging us back to the dark.
Some of us are deep in the dark and so we don't get a bolt of lightning we get a lightning storm to wake us from the depths of our apathy and judgement. I was a hard case, so I got a barrage, a lightning storm that lasted a long time.
In the end that intensity "lightened" my heart brighter. It gave me the capacity to love deeper. I have so much love now that I sometimes don't know what to do with it all. Yet, I would never trade that empathy for anything in the universe. I feel things now, deeply, wholeheartedly. The beauty from the emotions in my heart far outweighs anything my ego and mind ever accomplished.
Yes, the journey from head to heart is amazing and outrageous and so, so very hard- but it is our purpose.
Someone I once knew was in the struggle of this journey. His head prevented him from even saying the words "I love you". I imagine that is quite a painful road block. He once asked me "Do you think I am capable of love?"
Of course, I knew he was. I had felt it in his touch, seen it in his eyes and shared it in his deep laughter. I witnessed it in his gift of time with me and in his empathy for my dog and for me in my own times of need. He was steady and strong and kind, yet here he was doubting his capacity for what he was born to do. Love.
That doubt and fear blocked his road to love. I knew the traffic jam well, I had been around its bend. It took an army of angels and every ounce of courage I had to help me break through. My emotions from his question overwhelmed me so much. I could only hug him in response. I remember putting my hand on his back by his heart and quietly infusing my love there as he held me. I was gifting him with love that would stay on his journey even if I was no longer on his road. I wanted him to know deep abiding love with a partner. I hoped it would be me, but my love had no boundary and I more so hoped he would find it in whatever place he would know its amazing spirit and limitless joy. Love, you see, is not about me but simply about love. My heart simply wanted his heart to sing. My head was no where in sight and had no stake in the game.
MY road from head to heart was complete, unblocked and flowing for me. I could now never live any other way. From then on my love would flow freely in everything I did.
All the trauma I had..all the lightening that struck me opened my heart to feelings. Those experiences created my heart, filled it with recognizable sensations. Every lesson of forgiveness, love, empathy, compassion and joy whether harsh or gentle created my heart. All of it now flows from me for and into others so they too find their hearts. Every scar is a river bed where love flows up to meet another who has swum in the same river. Connections that we are meant to share. Connections that are the reason we are all united within each other. LOVE.
The journey from head to heart is paved by emotion. Paved by sadness and joy and loss and abundance. It is meant to teach us to feel. If you are in the struggle of this journey focus on your experiences. Step into the "lightning" to feel the Lightening. Do not fear it, it is meant to light your awakening and lighten your heart. Those jolts and bolts of lightning give you a glimpse of the dark so you know where to go. ....
Follow your lightening..straight to your beautiful heart!
Peace and Love,
Spiritual Healer, Energetic Medium
This Blog is the story of the miracles, challenges and lessons of my life journey. Years ago when I hit a personal "rock bottom" my despair led me to seek answers and my quest for truth began. Amazing events propelled me on a spiritual journey of transformation.. Miraculously, through these experiences my life has become my teacher and my friend.... I hope my words connect us and allow us to walk together for a time as teacher and friend to each other. The most valuable thing we have during this human experience is our connection to love. The love in our soul for a higher power and others is the only thing that is real. I honor these connections through my writing. Theses words are my gift inspired through the heart of Spirit for you. I hope by sharing my journey it will enlighten, inspire and ease yours as it does mine >> ... Peace... Georgia Rose