It seems we humans worry an awful lot about making the right decisions when it comes to relationships and matters of the heart. Often sitting in conflict until a decision is made for us. That place doesn't always feel so good as we lick our wounds and go deep to work through the sadness and disappointment that weighs so heavy. Letting go is hard - being let go even harder. Especially when love lingers and connections still bind. We doubt, we wonder, we regret. There is a sappy romantic sort of saying "if you love something set it free - if it comes back."..blah blah - you know the one - I always hated it! I think its idiotic.
Why? Because although I trust the Universe to bring me what is best, I'm not one to leave things to chance, I am a creator not a by stander. I guess you could say me and the universe are co creating.
My life has shown me that once love is created it never dies. We choose its vibration by the way our ego or heart decides to honor or deny it.
I realize when I look back on the times of my life - the painful break ups and joyful connections that somehow the universe has proved to be my perfect partner in my journey and the teachings of love. You see, ultimately everything has been as it should be - timed as it was. Although as it occurred I may have felt otherwise.
I needed to be with certain partners at certain times to know that particular experience of love or joy or pain or sorrow. And I needed to feel their absence at certain times to have the experiences I was supposed to. Inevitably it all brought me here to the place where I am whole and strong and able to love freely. To be love. This is the current destination. The road and its stopovers could not have been any other way. The right thing was always done by me or the other at the right time. It all comes down to timing.
Ultimately when you are who you are meant to be, in the right place, the right thing comes at the right time and it feels good. It doesn't matter if its someone you already tried with before because timing can sometimes make round 2 different - you are different and so are they -partly because what went before made you so.. yes it is quite true that In the end timing is linear and love is limitless.
Once created Love simply exists. It hangs somewhere within reach until we pay attention to it. Love, the universe and I are partners now, we share the driving and decide where we want to go. I am no longer just along for the ride eyes closed, holding on for dear life. No I am here fully present.
And just then the past walks in. He looks good and your heart butterflies...
And then, you remember... that familiar face, the feel of that one, the smell of them and their smile... and that little stirring within that makes you catch your breath...
You feel alive and joyful in their presence, part of you doesn't want the night to end and you want to feel their kiss, but you have a hard time admitting that to yourself and so you hang back a bit. Wondering how love has survived, you doubt love even when the universe has its heartbeat pulsing in your veins. ... choice. conflict. ego. heart. It's all swirling..
So, instead of what you want to do,you hug him and say goodbye. You walk away wishing he would call your name, even just whisper it, so you could turn around and run to him. o, instead of what you want to do, you drive away wishing for the courage to turn the car around. Even as your fingers grip the wheel they itch to grab that small waist you left standing in the parking lot and kiss her like you wanted.
The universe is showing you that love is a survivor. And sometimes when all is said and done its right there where we left it, waiting for our time and heart to give us and it a second chance.
Because some things are just meant to be, at a certain time, in a certain place for certain people.. .happiness is a choice. Sometimes the Universe drives and Reverse is the right gear even though it's up and to the left.. and often a bitch to find ... it's there if you have the courage to reach for it.
Peace and love
Spiritual Healer, Energetic Medium
This Blog is the story of the miracles, challenges and lessons of my life journey. Years ago when I hit a personal "rock bottom" my despair led me to seek answers and my quest for truth began. Amazing events propelled me on a spiritual journey of transformation.. Miraculously, through these experiences my life has become my teacher and my friend.... I hope my words connect us and allow us to walk together for a time as teacher and friend to each other. The most valuable thing we have during this human experience is our connection to love. The love in our soul for a higher power and others is the only thing that is real. I honor these connections through my writing. Theses words are my gift inspired through the heart of Spirit for you. I hope by sharing my journey it will enlighten, inspire and ease yours as it does mine >> ... Peace... Georgia Rose