The universe is like a big treasure chest overflowing with jewels. These jewels are connections. Connections with God , people and our own Spirit. These connections are the precious gems we source our life from. My journey is about deeply feeling and honoring these connections by lifting the lid on that treasure chest to explore all the universe has to offer me.
The first connection I worked on was the God thing. I was raised with a strong faith and although it was in an organized religion , which is not ideal...it gave me the foundation for belief and trust. The Catholic rituals of my youth where I often felt the love of Spirit proved to me there was "something" higher who created us. Now I believe that energy from our creator lives inside each of us and when "tapped" it shines light on our lives. Like maple syrup running abundantly from the bark of a tree this divine energy pours from our souls to light our way out of darkness for ourselves and each other. We can use this energy reverently to source our lives for a higher good. I have found tapping that spring is very profound and the most rewarding thing about being human. Once you connect with that flow of energy the universe keeps the current going through synchronicity in its highest form
The next connection on my journey was people. Other humans are important for our experience and wisdom but mostly for growth. We can't grow without connecting to one another. The universe brings us many connections once we are open to them. My journey taught me to choose these connections wisely. I learned to honor myself through my connections with others. I believe the key is to love whole heartedly. Loving others as we love ourselves, we can surrender to vulnerability without loving to our own detriment, that is true love. Constructive not destructive. Safe not frightening. Once you love with this energy the universe brings you deeper more meaningful connections.
The universe and its treasures have shown me that in order to love we must first be free. Only when our soul is free and we are connected to it and it's light are we free to love deeply, truly without fear. Fear is the formidable gatekeeper that keeps us all in check. Stuck and restricted. You can't live afraid to be different, afraid to listen to your own voice, afraid to dream, afraid to move, afraid to love. You have to do and become all of those things to live and be in love. You have to knock the gatekeeper unconscious and bust out of prison.
Live life " full throttle". It's scary but the universe will help you do it.
That's the part of the journey I am at now. I have asked the universe to help me with the ultimate connection ..the one with my own soul. I'm getting my soul free. I want to connect with myself fearlessly, wholeheartedly. That means doing things I am afraid of. In relationships. In life. In the universe. Sometimes that's really uncomfortable, but it always ends up in an awesome place! It's the "getting there" that will test all your senses and capabilities. But ultimately the universe has a way of rooting us on just when we start to get all squirrelly and start questioning everything.
The other day while visiting Aruba I went Para Sailing. A huge thing for me as I fear heights. I hate the feeling of groundlessness under my feet. But I had to free my soul from yet another restriction and this was my opportunity to do so. As I waited for the boat to pick me up on the beach, I was starting to lose my nerve. I was fidgety and telling myself I must be crazy. Maybe I'm taking this face your fear stuff a bit too far. I could feel fear winning. I looked down in the sand pensively as I fingered the crucifix at me neck asking God for courage. I noticed there was a wooden clothes pin laying at my feet. At first sight it reminded me of my Mom. She used to hang laundry out in the back yard. I smelled her just then as I pictured her squinting in the sun, pushing back her wavy brown hair as she clipped the sheets to the clothes line. A flash of memory from another lifetime ago passed quickly . I picked up the clothes pin and tossed it in my beach bag thinking I could use it later to fasten my towel to the back of my beach chair in the wind. Just then the boat came and picked me up and before I knew it I was flying over the Caribbean Sea with the clouds. Nothing beneath my feet except air and turquoise water. Awesome! Another item off the bucket list! I pretended I was in a James Bond movie flying over the island on a top secret assignment. Entertaining myself with bizarre thoughts as I often do. It was an unforgettable experience.
The next morning I cleaned out my beach bag and there was the clothes pin. I had forgotten about it. But it was now a lucky clothespin. After all, it had distracted me from that final panic of resistance as I waited on the beach. I turned the wood over in my hand and written on the clothes pin was "free soul". I had to read it over again before I could believe my eyes. Wow! Really!
Another adventure and another message from Spirit showing me I am absolutely where I am supposed to be ... doing what I am meant to be doing.
The universe once again was rooting me on! My biggest fan, a loving Universe!
A few days later I boarded the plane for home. I am not a good flyer and I sat on the runway feeling the familiar panic begin in my tummy. I looked out the window and the plane next to me had SPIRIT written across its belly I chuckled at this grounding reminder. But the universe wasn't done giving me signs as a Goddard Catering truck passed by the Spirit plane. I would arrive safely. The Universe was happy with my journey. It wants me to continue to look inside my beautiful treasure chest for the gems of life.
I have no doubt that the Universe has me fully supported, cheering me on to live at full throttle. There are signs everywhere showing me the way. It's only when we focus on fear instead of the beautiful world that we forget to pay attention for the signs that show us a " you done good" with a wink from our Angels...showing us the way to get our souls free...
Peace and love ,
It was an unseasonably warm day in December as I ran on the beach with Sparky. There was no one around for miles except an old man sitting randomly in a camp chair. He sat quietly staring out at the ocean. Boy, he " gets it" I thought as we ran past him, careful not to disturb his peace. Out of breath I stop and sit on the sand as Sparky plops down in my lap and we hug each other tight. His warmth and heaviness so familiar as to be a part of my soul. I stare out at the sun glistening on the water like the rays of God. And I feel so inspired and connected. I feel completely comfortable being alone here. On a beach with no signs of life accept "old man camp chair" about a half mile down the way I am relaxed and content. The feeling is familiar to me. My limbs feel relaxed and long and my thoughts are good company. I live this way now. At home. Inside myself. I am safe on the inside looking out. I sit on the sand alone, just my dog and me and I am grateful. My heart is so full of love for this universe! I stare at the sun rays playing on the water and I feel so connected to God I wonder how I could have ever felt alone in my life!
But I remember how it used to be...
I send a prayer out to all those in despair.
"May you be blessed and find peace"
I know how it is...
For most of my life I felt like I was on the outside looking in. This different state of being caused a disconnect and loneliness that I attributed to something dark or not good enough about me. I felt alone in a crowded room. I was different than everyone else. I felt separated by something that was " missing" in me. I took great pains to hide this secret as I pretended to be "just like everyone else" .
I tried so hard to fit in that I achieved the perception of success and near perfection. After all, who was I to indulge in the arrogant notion that I was different. And so, I buried my truth in the soil of others expectations and rose to their occasions and dictates. I was rewarded when their welcoming hands ushered me through the doorways of the rooms I had wistfully observed from the outside. With great relief I walked through their doors and thought I wasn't different anymore, I am where I belong. I shall find what I seek here.
I was wrong.
Sitting here on the damp sand I am at peace. Finally I have found home. But it would be foolish of me to forget my journey to this place. I can still remember the hopeless panic that took me over when I realized after arriving at the destination I spent my whole life climbing to get to, I hadn't really gotten any place at all. Years of climbing and running had given me no distance from the place where I started from. I still felt like I was an outsider. The truth was I felt alone all the time everywhere and anywhere no matter what I accomplished. I had searched a lifetime looking for the something "missing" and it was not to be found in the successes where I was certain it would be.
And that hurt.
What was "missing" was always here inside me. All those years searching for home in another's eyes, another's smile, another's body, another new thing, a new destination , a new career achievement... was the journey of the fool. It was only when I swept those illusions off my porch and it was purged of all things except myself that I finally understood where to look.
Of course I felt alone, how could I not when I had separated myself from the source of my creation. I denied my need for that connection. Instead I chased castles in the air, when everything would be found here in the beating of my heart and in the remembering of who I was before I was born into this life.
This morning the sun beats down on me and it is a reminder of the amazing perfection of life. Today's small miracle is this sun so warm in December. The waves crash on the sand and I think of the energy that made all this beauty. I feel home now. Home is this energy that made all and made me too and it lives in me. No person or thing could ever give this to me. We must give it to ourselves. It is our birthright, this beautiful safety of he power of the universe. Our God source. I am this source. I am one with this ocean and sun and the air I breath. I no longer feel different or out of place.
I study the vast ocean spreading further than my eyes can see. I am so small against it yet so important. Every drop of that ocean was created with love as was I. With my eyes closed I take in the energy of this love through my body, I can feel it vibrate against my skin it tingles as though Angels have brushed against me. Sparky burrows his head into me, he feels this incredible unity between us too. I put my hand on his furry chest so I can feel his heartbeat and I know the value of life. I find it here in this perfect moment. And in this moment I feel my own value. My perfection. I live inside of that vault, the soul of my worth. I am safe wherever I go now. Always on the inside looking out. Alone but never alone..
This is my life now....
Peace and love,
Part of our journey to self awareness is to look at the things we use to fill our voids. Only introspection can reconcile those holes.
When I was a child I had one best friend who lived right next door. We were inseparable spending all our time together including sleep overs and eating dinner at each other's houses. We would spend summer days together until it was dark and then talk to each other through our bedroom windows across the side yard from each other's houses. I suppose spending time with her was a lifeline in the noisy chaotic sometimes violent house I was growing up in. Life circumstances would come to separate she and I when my family was torn apart. And for me that special innocent friendship of youth was never experienced again. For most of my youth and adulthood I only had one or two close friends, never really seeking large groups of people around me. I experienced much familial abandonment and this left me guarded and often times preferring a quiet lonely path instead of noisy places and groups.
But there came a time when I switched roads and started to take the busier path and began seeking that instead of the road less traveled. I could blame my boisterous sales career or a party loving husband for this change of preferences but that would not be honest. No, it was me that suddenly started to fill my life with "noise" to plug up the holes from things too painful to leave open. There were losses that I won't describe here because their details are not significant. The significance of them is in my desperate denial and distraction of their very existence.
I suppose life is normally given to us in bites we can chew, and when it is not we set up defenses like denial and distractions to make it palatable. These poor coping mechanisms allow us to swallow mouthfuls of grief and anger and sorrow, loss we would otherwise choke to death on. We use some kind of anesthetic, drugs , drink, sex, work...whatever makes us numb enough to swallow what is so distasteful.
My drug of choice was people! My cold empty home felt better with music and people. My empty heart that longed to give love, soI threw lots of parties. Instead of being alone with my thoughts I collected enough people so that there was always an event to attend or a place to go that kept my thoughts at bay. The lists grew and grew and my associations grew further and wider. Celebrations became my medicine.
At first I collected all the " right " people and traveled in the " best" circles. But when life circumstances once again drastically changed my course many of those liaisons fell away. The universe had decided to bring me some tragic events that pushed my status out of popularity into obscurity.
But I still clung to my addiction to I started to lower the standard of who was collected. I became rebellious to the person I used to be and diminished my own standards. When I ran out of rich topsoil, I filled my voids with sand, and when I ran out of sand I started to use dust.
Unfortunately building on sand and dust as a support in life is a recipe for disaster. Soon most of the friends in my life were characters that did not support my authentic self. In fact they were actually harmful to my growth and true agenda in life. And so the lower characters pushed out many of my friends of higher character as people walked away from me shaking their heads. In my desperation I began to reach down instead of up for the supply to fill my void. Soon I didn't recognize who I was becoming. Now, isn't that the definition of addiction?
And with most addictions the bottom comes...I began to feel lonelier when I was out with my "friends" than I did at home. I began to see that many of the people I surrounded myself with were not trustworthy or supportive to me. As my void attracted people that should not have been in my life to begin with, I was let down and used often. And when those times came I had no one to turn to because my true friends were disgusted.
What was the thing driving this addiction to people? The losses that originated in childhood and grew into an abyss in adulthood created a relentless and devastating longing ... for a FAMILY.
In the absence of that longed for connection and support, I sadly collected people that I tried to make my family. But in my desperate choosing of quantity over quality I was often left hurt and betrayed. I was easy prey for those that fill their own voids with manipulation and control and use others. I was often their victim after my poor judgement was to blame.
I was unhappy and I started to want more for myself. The awareness of my void demanded reconciliation. I stopped using people to keep my thoughts away. I started to stay home in that cold empty house I dreaded and be alone with my thoughts.
I was always good at being alone and entertaining myself but this was different. Ono longer avoided introspection in my solitude, I embraced it. At first I had never heard silence so loud. I made pen and paper my only friends for awhile. I wrote and journaled through the lonely nights and poured out my feelings across pages in the silence of my home until the cacophony inside my head made the silence disappear. I turned to my faith and my angels and myself for company. They were all dependable and life affirming. I went deep in my voids and studied them while I healed the wounds that caused them with the new energies of faith and love I had found. I meditated and did yoga. This gave me the strength to sweep my holes clean of the other less healthy fillers and
My time alone and clearing things made me understand it all. I cleared my porch of the characters and things who no longer served my best purpose. I learned to be my own best friend and to be my own family.
Something amazing started to happen!Slowly the right characters started to show up. It was synchronicity that brought me these loyal and amazing true friends. When I started to be authentic with myself, authentic people came into my life. I was self correcting and the universe was rewarding me by reversing my circumstances. The sand and dust blew away as the rich topsoil once again came to me.
For 20 years I used to have a huge Christmas Party every year. It grew to over 100 people with a heated tent off the back of my house. These last few years that has steadily diminished as my life takes on a new momentum. The party that was once the annual ritual I judged my status by has morphed into a soulful gathering of the people I value most. The huge fake and fancy party is long gone and I am most relieved and grateful it has disappeared.
This year I celebrated when I opened sacred space and had a Reiki share and pot luck dinner with about 10 people, my closest friends. A beautiful tradition to be shared by people who are not just fillers but my tribe. As my home filled with laughter and shared stories I felt the warmth of family and the true heart cords that connect us all.
We are a tribe. We laugh and live, bury our dead and celebrate life, love in authenticity. We share and support each other. They are the circle that brought me full circle.
We sometimes we go out and we party because we all love music and we love to dance. Those times are not our main purpose but yet another of the many spaces where we share joy. Our connections are based on being present for ALL the meaningful events of our lives.
I am grateful and blessed that I fill my own voids now. My addiction to people is over. I have learned to choose my associates wisely. My life is a sacred space that I choose to open carefully to those things and people and places that bring me to a higher good and give me joy and love.
So many of us have fought so hard to create our beautiful lives. It is important we learn to honor what we bring into our universe. Honor your universe and watch the beauty unfold.
Peace and Love
A few years ago I lit my spark. I woke up. The challenge ever since is to stay awake, and keep the spark lit. That 's not easy. When life is hard we often get pulled into its darkness. Self doubt and worry creep into our souls like rain pouring into a poorly thatched roof. Keeping the spark lit means staying in the light , letting our lamp reveal a book of knowledge that grows like a strong wind to blow away those rain clouds. And using what we learn to keep the thatch of our souls strong and tight. Our Light stays lit by paying attention and finding the inspiration we need to source such a life. This was the year I learned that among other these things.
1. Truth - We Show Others How To Love Us!
So, it turns out that "Miss Independent " the queen of "I got this" "I don't need anybody to help me" actually wanted and needed help sometimes! You can't carry that message and then wonder why no one came through for you. I took responsibility that people let me down because my actions told them to. I let everybody off the hook by never asking and acting like I had it all figured out and then felt angry and abandoned when once again I was doing everything on my own.
I realized the truth about how I wish to be loved and treated and how important it is to forge partnerships and alliances based on that truth. Once I brought that newly discovered truth to the outside and made sure the way I am perceived is in alignment with what I really desire then all my relationships became more authentic. When I dropped that mask expectations and outcomes were no longer the priority. My connections felt easier , more natural and became about the day to day honest enjoyment of them. Authentically showing people how I want to be loved makes me feel free and stronger. And my bonus when I finally got real was all that awkwardness and anxiety I often felt with others has disappeared from my life. * Always be honest about what you want and how you want to be loved.
2. Words - Choose Your Words Carefully
This was a lesson learned years ago but finally almost mastered. We are judged and condemned and praised by our words. Words said to others can cause a hurt that is not easily forgiven, forgotten or undone. Words are so very powerful and I am in love with words. I am wordy and talky and I write. So words are even more important and often carry more impact from me. When I was an angry and wounded woman I used words to hurt and cut and slay others. My words were destructive used to belittle and offend. I have learned my words have greater impact when used to empower and teach, heal and comfort. I learned to use words for creation not destruction. And I have learned that the most important words we speak are not to each other but to ourselves. I speak to myself with love and honor and create a scared space of safety in my own opinion of me. * Use Words To Love and be loved.
3. Energy - Is Your Power
All the energy spent on gossip and drama and worrying about trivia is better spent on productive things. All the energy we spend on wearing a mask and hiding our true agendas so that others will like us and perceive us a certain way is better spent on seeking honesty in ourselves. Energy is precious. It is our life blood our source and supply. When we spend it on superficial trivialities we become powerless. I learned to be very careful how I spend energy. I learned to protect and honor my energy and its power supply. I realized I am happiest when my energy is spent on things that give me power. Things like seeking the truth of who I am, learning about myself, being creative, enjoying natures beauty and connecting to the source of our creation replenishes my energy and keeps it from depleting. I learned I need that precious power to live joyfully and create the life I want!
*Energy is best spent on authenticity and most rewarded there.
4. Forgiveness- Is About Freedom
Forgiveness isn't about the other person and whether or not they deserve forgiveness. It's about loving yourself enough to let go of anger and let go of the grudge. Wanting a better life for yourself than living in anger, fear, frustration and darkness. When I forgave certain people in my life it did more for my self worth than anything else I have ever done because it made me free to love myself and others with a generosity I never could before. I learned what is means to truly "let go" and be in a space of vulnerability where we authentically connect.
* Forgiveness is about how much you love yourself and your ability to love others.
5. Light- Sources the Journey
Light cures all. Everything in the dark is distorted, clothes thrown over a chair become a monster as things shape shift in shadow. Its the same in your mind. The things we keep in the dark are much scarier and larger than they would be if we flick on the lights. In fact when brought to light some of them never were really even there! Shine light on those deep places and when you see what is real and what is an illusion it is shocking. Things in the dark are often more powerful in the distortions we create there. In light they become less frightening and more manageable. We can overcome anything and heal all things with light. So put light everywhere. Shine so bright you light others darkness. But never let anyone dim your own. When I am sad or headed to the dark I picture light pouring into my head and all through me.
* Light cures and heals all life carry it inside always.
6. Illusions - Not Everything is as it Seems
I learned a great deal about illusions this year. I learned the biggest illusions in our lives are when we think that something is our security when it is really our restriction. We often never see the things that are holding us back from living our true purpose! I closed a business which I sourced my life from on every level For years I thought that it was my security and could not imagine a day without it. But the universe led me in another direction of a more heart based endeavor. As my soul woke up and my heart began to stir my need to do spiritual work grew. I realized with shock that what was my security was in reality my restriction. Never in a million years would I have believed it to be so. But once my ego released the illusion of security and my heart saw the restriction, a new life was created out of my new conciousness. Believe me this was the biggest battle and hurtle I have ever gone through. The death of ego is brutal. Facing the truth about a false belief makes you feel groundless at first. But the universe guided me as I co created with it. Soon I had a life that was in alignment with my awakening. By merging my earthbound real estate business into another firm I was free of the restriction that did not allow the time to pursue my Reiki and Readings. After awhile it became apparent that a lifetime of legendary success in the business world when combined with my psychic gifts would be used to coach others on their life path. I learned that everything life brings us is for reasons revealed in time. This taught me to look closer, deeper and find the real meaning and to have courage to break through the illusions. Because as painful as the process is when broken they set us free.
* Illusions when broken give us freedom to live a better life
7. Trust - Sometimes .. Surrender Is All You've Got Left
# 6 taught me #7. I've always said "I don't know how to do anything I just DO IT". But this past year and going through my lesson of sustenance and changing the way I define myself through work taught me I don't have to know everything. As I closed one door to open another I learned about trust. I went through so much change and reorganization this year that there was a period of being totally groundless. But I learned that when you have no foundation and you are left groundless that is where you find the truth. I remember for about 2 months straight my stomach felt like I was literally falling as the chakras in my physical body took on my emotions. That told me big stuff was happening and that this was an important time for me. I needed to make these life changes alone because I knew there were lessons in the disassembling of the person I used to be and the construction of who I was becoming . I could allow no other person to be in this space with me. I knew their help would dilute the lessons the universe wanted me to learn. And so struggling to take apart desks alone at 3 am and negotiating leases and logistics while feeling nostalgic and devastated and hopeful and excited and exhausted and exhilarated with no one to share it with became profound. I had initiated it all by myself and now I was seeing it all through. Left to only see 3 feet in front of me instead of planning miles ahead I was left with no choice but to surrender. I needed to feel every emotion to know without any doubt I was doing the right thing. I learned there is a higher source in charge and when I surrendered ( after much kicking and screaming) to Him things seemed to go pretty well. As things unfolded for the better I was able to trust more. As painful a process as it was to let go it was all vital in creating the trust I now have in surrender.
* Always know the universe has you fully supported .
8. Fear of Being Alone
Yes it is unnatural to be alone. But if you fear being alone you will find your life enslaved to that fear. You will put yourself places and with people who will restrict you and cause you pain and heartache because you accept less than you desire and deserve. We make poor choices when we are motivated by fear and the avoidance of fear, we make healthy choices when we are motivated by love. This year I have spent more time alone than at any other time in my life . I had to figure out somethings (see #1 ) and when I understood #3 I became very selective about who and where I share energy with. I was alone in quiet contemplation quite a bit. I found myself having fun alone and enjoying my own company. I felt lucky backpacking around Fire Island alone or enjoying a delicious dinner solo. In fact I felt so lucky doing these things I didn't notice I was alone. I had finally become so comfortable in my own self that I no longer feared being with only me. I learned loving someone and being in a life partnership starts with truth and being truthful with yourself. * You can't be truthful to yourself when you are in fear. So be in love with yourself first.
9. Inspiration - The Force of Source is Love
This year I learned that I am not inspired by money or a pretty face or possesions or promises. I have learned that I am inspired by connection. I am inspired by love. I have learned that paying attention and opening to the universe gives us an unlimited source of love which often comes from the most unexpected places. I have learned I can't function at full potential without that inspiration. This past year my most significant inspiration came from ordinary people facing extraordinary life challenges every day. Being in the energy of Reiki inspires me. When I see people reach out for help and know the bravery it takes I am inspired. And when people have offered me a hand just when I thought I would break, I am inspired. When I meditate or do yoga and feel one with the universe, in that bliss I am inspired. It is the soulful connections of life which inspire me. I am lucky because my inspiration is now authentic. I am grateful because I was able to have the bravery and strength it took to find that. That has inspired me. I have learned very simply that...
* To love and be loved is my inspiration
I hope my life lessons help you on your journey.
Peace and Love,
Time always moves on. We can’t stop it and our human challenge is to learn to embrace it.
I realize one of our gross mistakes is how we misuse time. We make too many things about time when they should be about love. We waste time, we bargain with time, we rush time, we worry about time, time makes us stressed and pressured and it’s the way we measure EVERYTHING. We live in the future or the past where we become so preoccupied with the mere thought of time it becomes the definition of our whole life. Thinking there will never be enough of it we ration it, we covet it. We dole it out in stingy or generous increments to the ones around us depending on how we judge their worthiness. We resent those that steal it from us like the too needy friend or demanding ungrateful boss. But the truth is however we try to harness or spend time the clock keeps moving forward regardless of our choices. And yet we preoccupy ourselves with the mere existence of its future and past dimensions as if those places hold all the magical answers like a Holy Grail.
I used to have a rose garden that taught me quite a lot. You see roses bloom when it’s simply time. You can’t force it or postpone it to suit when you want the blooms to be at their best. Nothing can be done to alter their timing. All you can do is love them and watch them to see their need and understand the time it takes them to bloom, much like people when we truly accept them. You just water and feed and nurture them and in return you may get to enjoy their life and evolution from tiny bud to full gorgeous bloom.
In the beginning I was worried about my garden. I read gardening books about how to cultivate the best flowers. I worried so much about the timing of it all and how it was going to work, I almost didn’t see the flowers blooming. Then I realized this was a labor of love, not time and I took my nose out of the books and smelled the flowers, literally. And I loved them. I focused my attention on showing the delicate blooms my love. And strangely enough I forgot about time. When I tended my garden time flew by. There was no time because I was focused on love not time.
My rose garden taught me how to be “in the moment”. And I started to carry this lesson of “mindfulness” over to other parts of my world. Going about my daily routine, if I started to feel rushed or pressured about time I would exhale and focus on the moment and find something to observe and be grateful for. If I had to wait somewhere and pass time, instead of being impatient I practiced the same thing. I focused on people or my surroundings and observed my life and surroundings in that moment. It wasn’t long before I became occupied with finding things to love in each moment instead of being occupied with the time clicking by and wondering what would happen next. Things I had missed before suddenly swan into sharp focus. Amazingly I saw more beauty and found pleasure in many moments throughout the day. My life became more soulful. I felt deep gratitude. And my whole perspective began to change.
. At first this happened slowly. But before long I noticed that simple everyday things affected me more deeply. The park I used to rush through with Sparky because I had to get to work, suddenly had these gorgeous trees turning fall colors and smiling people and beautiful birds. I didn’t see them before because my mind was 10 steps ahead worried about time. We fear not having enough time and we allow that fear to rob us and cause the very thing we fear! Before you know it life has passed us by because our minds were somewhere else while we lived. We are blind to this when we are NOT in the present moment observing what is happening.
Through mindfulness our relationships become deeper, healthier and more satisfying too because we are truly present in them. Just like my roses. The real purpose of the garden was about the growth of the flowers. When I realized that, I “saw” them. When I was so worried about their future and trying to make them the best they could be so they lived up to MY expectations I almost missed out on the beauty they offered me daily and didn’t appreciate their gift. I was preoccupied with future time.
Isn’t that what we do with the people in our life? We worry so much about the outcome of things we miss out on present moments. We push and prod and mold and try to control our lives and relationships to meet our expectations with such force we neglect to allow things to unfold and bloom the way they are supposed to. We forget to trust the universe and believe in its power to naturally evolve all things to their full potential. In doing so we rob ourselves of the very experiences our hearts crave. That is a real authentic source of connection and existence.
Authentically allowing things to bloom into all they can be naturally and practicing a belief in basic goodness gives us a strong foundation in our lives from which we can accomplish anything and everything. And it all starts with something as simple as living in the present moment and surrendering time as we know it.
This point was brought home to me through my spiritual work at Georgia Rose Connection. I work with many people using tools such as Reiki, Intuitive Life Coaching and Readings to inspire and ignite changes and create the harmony and healing they desire in their lives, As we work together I am fully focused on each session with no thought of the future or past except as a reference point for the work. Now, you would think as a life coach I would be fixated on the future and achieving a goal and specific outcome. But I am not.
When I am in sessions with a client there is a sacred space that builds between us, where we are both focused on present energy. That power of NOW gives us a heightened observance of what IS. Breakthroughs occur simply because we are paying attention and harnessing the power of NOW. By activating the belief and trust that the universe will work with us and wants to assist us to a higher good, we transmute energy. In this practice the most important and most valuable matter becomes the journey and the experience of change, not the outcome. The wisdom is revealed in the process not the result.
In this way we are like those roses in my garden. Growing like human flowers reaching towards the light of a thousand suns to find the wisdom of our ancestors and source through divine channels that go unobserved when we are not focused on the present. This surrender and harnessing of our divine right of evolution is what the human experience is meant to be. Unfortunately we humans do not take the time to honor our lives in such a profound way. Instead we give time more relevance than we do the value of our lives within it. If instead of pushing against it we could outstretch our arms to embrace time and harness its present current to observe all it has to teach we would most assuredly master our lives. The wisdom gained from that process gives us solid answers to basically everything. But unfortunately for most of us the source remains untapped as we rush around oblivious to its existence.
Just as the people in my garden at Georgia Rose Connection teach me daily what it is to be alive and feel God’s grace we can all teach each other by observing and honoring our lives as they are in the present moment. The future and the past force judgment and duality. In the present there is only what is, not what will be or was, and so we feel things more intensely and more truthfully when they are given our full attention without the preoccupation of “time”. In those “moments of truth” are the seeds that make our gardens grow.
I challenge each of you to live in the now.
Below is an exercise designed to show you the power of feeling present. Enjoy!
Close your eyes.
Take a couple of deep breaths in, out, exhale.
Now feel the place in the center of your chest
Where your heart is
Now smile at your heart.
That’s it. Simply feel the joy inside that you can only feel when you are present.
Practice this often throughout the day.
SMILE AT YOUR HEART and teach your children to do it too.
Peace and love,
Spiritual Healer, Energetic Medium
This Blog is the story of the miracles, challenges and lessons of my life journey. Years ago when I hit a personal "rock bottom" my despair led me to seek answers and my quest for truth began. Amazing events propelled me on a spiritual journey of transformation.. Miraculously, through these experiences my life has become my teacher and my friend.... I hope my words connect us and allow us to walk together for a time as teacher and friend to each other. The most valuable thing we have during this human experience is our connection to love. The love in our soul for a higher power and others is the only thing that is real. I honor these connections through my writing. Theses words are my gift inspired through the heart of Spirit for you. I hope by sharing my journey it will enlighten, inspire and ease yours as it does mine >> ... Peace... Georgia Rose