I find myself silently observing patterns of my own behavior that have been in motion for a lifetime. This current energy, so intense has brought much to the surface and yet, now eases up a bit. But has it eased up, or just shifted gears to get us to our destinations a bit less worse for wear? Maybe the heavens just realized we needed a pit stop to inflate our tires and check the oil. As Venus and Mars form a quincunx this week the energy may feel less harsh and not as powerful, but I suspect it's just another illusion, served up by these strange cosmic forces. The summer of power seems to be dishing out surprises of a different flavor this week. It is curiously sweeter.
It's a free dessert that was sent over, but not on the menu. A tasty little surprise that tempts us to dig in. Honey to the bee! Even though we are not quite sure what it is going to taste like, based on appearance alone our intuition tells us to grab a bite and enjoy. This feeling doesn't come often, so lets relax and take advantage of it!
But there is no FREE dessert - everything has a price...
Don't think because things seem a bit less tense that nothing is going on. Karma is always in motion. Sometimes it is more powerful below the surface than when it is acting out above.
There is much brewing in this seemingly calm week. This energy is building for the Full Moon and eclipse on July 27th. Our lives are changing drastically this summer and for most of us this clearing and changing will lead to better things. Trust that!
In the meantime there is a tide flowing in each of us and although it may seem calmer over the next few days it is still moving and bringing debris and sand and memories and imprints and creatures to the surface. The tide has slowed not stopped, to give us the chance to observe what it is dredging. What parts of us are being made tender and what events hold messages for us. Swim with your guides and Angels to see what is in this water. Don't be afraid of its depth, the tide has calmed so you can see the bottom clearly and swim in it for awhile. Get used to what is there , take it out and play with it over the next few days. It will bring you clarity as you remember the past and integrate it with who you are NOW.
There in lies the work this energy is asking of us. To look at what and who we have been before and apply it to who we are now. It is only the now that matters. So let's use this window of clarity
to see truth and also to see our future. The future we will create for ourselves by releasing the past, forgiving ourselves and others and becoming stronger in this new light and calm waters.
The waters will rage again, but we will be better prepared if we have done this work to open our hearts further to be the warriors of our future. We can have it all, if we look at where we have failed to give it to ourselves and take back the power to do so.
Never did this become more apparent than yesterday.
Yesterday, I received some unexpected news about a very long close connection of mine planning on moving away in the future. I got panicky and sad and started to cry. I actually wanted to bolt! I was out with my boyfriend when I got the news and I just wanted to get away from him and be home alone. I was truly in a state of anxiety and trying to hide it so he wouldn't think I was overreacting. I just wanted to run somewhere and be by myself so I could process this unexpected development. I could feel the anxiety building, and my mind racing but I didn't want to show any of my feelings. His mere presence started to annoy me, I was so uncomfortable. I wanted to bolt!
By the time I got home I had resolved that these emotions were coming in rapid fire to show me something. Georgia, there is a karmic pattern here coming to the surface, what is it ... I asked myself. Why is your flight or fight kicking in, now? I put on some meditation music and started to cook dinner while my partner was in another room and outside picking veggies from our garden. I took a moment to breath and dive down into emotions that scared me. It was not easy - it was very uncomfortable. I wanted to ask my boyfriend to go home. I wanted to be alone. I wanted to have a big ugly cry and woah is me party. I realized this was my pattern. When I feel loss or the threat of loss I want to push people away , go home and isolate. Be alone, so I am not threatened by intimacy which always results in loss and more of this horrible feeling...a big huge circle of fear and loss , fear and loss... It comes from a life long Karma of abandonment and incredible grief.
I reasoned with myself that I didn't really want Chris to leave what I really needed and wanted was to go towards my fear and bring in love as its antidote. Have a nice dinner and quite conversation and feel our intimacy without fear. I needed to relax into the "real" which is love and stop denying myself the very thing - in fact the only thing that would heal me- love.
In my kitchen on a normal sunday as I cooked the sauce, I had clarity of such depth that it was in fact an epiphany - yes a break through. When you shut people out you feel dead. Fear deadens us! Numbs us and makes us empty. I lived in fear too long. I missed a lot of dinners. I sent a lot of people home. I didn't always answer the door. I didn't join in. I didn't participate in many things. Fear destroys us if we let it. It seeps in slowly until it controls us. That age old fear of people around me is tied to loss and grief. I thought I was over this. I thought I was filled with love, not fear. But here I was back in the sandbox with my old playmates. For a few minutes that made me angry. Then I forgave myself...and got on with it.
Georgia I told myself....".People will always come and go but if you push them all away in fear of loss you will never find the very thing you seek..love...someone who may stay. And even if they don't stay, so what ,open yourself fully to have it all while they ARE HERE other wise you are guaranteed nothing. Isn't it better to just be in life full throttle than running away from everybody all the time?" Enough is enough.....And I relaxed and I had a beautiful simple dinner with someone that I was going to send home. We laughed and snuggled and watched TV after and it felt like a life. Yes, life. A life I once blocked for many years.
This weeks energy is about what is happening under the surface. KARMA IS IN MOTION! As Mars is still retrograde and the moon is lining up for a huge event on the 27th the tides within us are building. But use the calm of the next few days to look below the surface at what is starting to churn within you. This energy of the cosmos provides love to shed light and reconcile our Karma. Our lives are changing and we need to actively participate in those changes to create our future. Do not allow the changes coming to spin your life out of control.
This week the summer of power shows us that we have the quiet yet powerful strength to shift our perceptions. It does this to get us ready for the bigger changes coming. So observe what comes up with love and don't push it down. Take it out and reinvent it as a cog in the new wheel that moves your life forward. Venus and Mars are showing us what we truly value and the love of those things is deeper than these old patterns and gives us the power to change our Karma. Peace and love Georgia Rose
A few days ago I was doing my chores and thinking about relationships and people in my life when I heard a voice. Yes, sometimes it happens like that - randomly...my higher self or one of my guides or an ascended master steps in to the conversation. They assume they need no invitation, after all they are pretty much in charge. So it was, as I was letting Sparky out and closing the sliding door, someone said "Oh Georgia, stop doing things that make your soul cry".
Hmm, never thought of it like that before... but we are in charge of our choices and actions right? So, why can't we stop making wrong turns, why can't we just stop our patterns and poor choices? It should be easy not to go down the same slippery slopes we know cause us pain or to get stuck in hurtful cycles.
And yet, we too often find ourselves in detriment or deprivation only to realize "we did it again"! What drives us to make the same mistakes big or small?
It is hunger. Thirst. Emptiness. That is the root cause of our negative patterns. We don't like to admit that, it's not fashionable, weakness never is. After all we are supposed to be healthy and full and we strive hard to appear that way to the world.. Like when we lie to the Doctor about how much we exercise or to ourselves about the cigarettes we don't smoke or drinks we don't take. It's all a game to hide our holes, our soft tender parts that ache for some fill. And so, where we can not admit these holes exist - we can't fill them with proper care and feeding. Instead our illusion becomes the crap we pour into them time and time again when what we truly crave is the healthy fill to nurture us into wholeness..
Have you ever come home from a long work day and you haven't eaten all day? You are starving and the whole way home your mind is on what you are going to make for dinner. But as soon as you get in the house your hands are on the junk food in the pantry and you have a spoon in a pint of ice cream! A starving person will eat anything! And so when we are starved for love or affection, acceptance or approval, attention or desire, is it any wonder we end up in a place less than desirable. When we are full we don't consume junk. When we are full we don't crave what is not good for us. When we are full we are less likely to be tempted by those poor choices. A full person makes healthy choices and feels whole from within. Full people don't grasp for the toxic snacks.
That is why SELF LOVE is so important and has to be the main ingredient of our diet. Its hard to make it, sometimes its hard to find all the things that go into the recipe. But that is the most important work we have to do in this world. We are here to love and be loved. To put love where there is none- and that starts with filling our own holes. When we live full we love more and the reward is a better life. A life where we no longer make our soul cry. So today let's take the first step to creating that life. Ask yourself what do my empty places really need from me? Stop reaching for the junk and instead reach for what you will truly value. Fill yourself with love from Spirit and the people in your life who are good for you! Step up and be your own best friend and end the cycles of hurt and deprivation you keep putting yourself in. There is a world within you that loves you - connect with that and let it fill all your cracks! Peace and love Georgia Rose
HOW MUCH SHOULD YOU OPEN YOUR HEART TO ONE THAT IS CLOSED?
As the current energy transforms some of us into an awakening of an open heart we find our thoughts centered less in our heads and more in our emotional body. We are becoming deeply feeling and less judgmental of those around us. More loving and more forgiving than we have been in the past,we become determined to find and create our own happiness and joy via the heart center of us.
But an uncomfortable by product of this, is that as our heart opens so does our ability to see truth, all truth. Sometimes the truth of another's heart no longer resonates with us once we are opened as never before. Yes, dropping in to our own authenticity often reveals others falsity or lack. We see where someone is hard hearted and cold and closed to love. Perhaps love has become a manipulation or detriment in that relationship. We have no judgment of them, and we can reason that they are acting out their wounds and defenses from their own karma as we all do and even this makes us compassionate. But our open and pure heart is now able to see where love has been intellectualized and has become a bargaining or arrangement.
While we are ready to love from a new place of understanding and emotion inside of us, there is much that still lives in the old house we built. We want to give more love to ourselves and are less willing to share in a less than deserving relationship, but there is love there too. So, How much should we give to these old connections that now fall short of our new desires?
We can't drag someone kicking and screaming to awakening. We can't abolish someones fears of love by loving them harder. We can't make someone secure by promising eternity. We can't make someone kind by being kind to them no matter what. We can't make someone truthful by always being honest. We can't make someone generous by giving them everything. We can't make someone affectionate by hugging them tighter.
And yet our newly opened and deeply loving heart wants to do just that for this person. But we want to give all that to ourselves now too.
What is the answer?
The answer is simple and like so many simple things, it's implementation is very hard. . We are often told don't let your heart rule your head. But I have come to believe that is exactly what must be done. When we drop into our heart and listen the higher self speaks. The being within that knows all comes to life and shows us the way. Call it conscious, intuition or emotion but we must listen to our heart above head.
Our heart will never let us love to our detriment like our head does because the ego resides in our head. Its cluttered with all kind of junk and noise. Our head tells us we need things and puts us in lust and power struggles. Our head makes us need the last word, our head makes us wait till the check clears and kids grow up and Mom gets better, and the dog heals. Our head tells us we won't find another or can't disrespect our parents or must tolerate our children. And so we find ourselves screamed at or neglected or bullied or unheard or deprived or abused by someone we are afraid to be without or afraid to confront. Why? Because we are patient and loving and kind? No that's is not why. It's because we are letting the fear in our head overrule the love we have in our hearts for ourselves. That fear keeps telling us we can find love in places where love does not reside.
Our open and deeply loving heart knows this truth. When we drop into it the answer is revealed. It is in the power of unlimited love for ourselves that we become powerful! We stop judging ourselves and our choices and become courageous enough to change them. And it is only by doing so and loving ourselves in a healthy way that we teach others how to love us deeply and authentically. As soon as we treat ourselves differently thus we are treated. By giving to ourselves all the love in our hearts that we have given away to others we begin to receive it from others too. By giving ourselves what we desire and deserve we receive it from our universe.
So HOW MUCH SHOULD YOU OPEN YOUR HEART TO ANOTHER WHO IS CLOSED? As much as is healthy without bringing dishonor to yourself. Nothing is more important than honoring ourselves. Nothing! The universe directly responds to this. If we treat ourselves like crap or allow ourselves to be treated badly the universe gives us more of the same. If we treat ourselves lovingly and kindly the universe gives us more of the same. We can be kind and loving, but never love to our own detriment. By using our open heart to see the truth of where we should be and what right action is we become masters of this. Soon we are practicing and creating a life that is balanced in what we desire and deserve. In this we bring more love and joy into our lives. Our living example is the vibration that helps those who are closed to open their hearts more fully. Preserving our honor and self love becomes even more important when we realize how greatly it effects not just us but the collective of all humans. That is so beautiful to think about and why it is so important for us to do the work we need to heal and become love. So make the effort to listen to what resides in your heart and deeply feel on an emotional level instead of in the brain. I'll bet the answers come easier!
I send the intention of peace and love to you all as we ascend during these retrogrades and energy transmutations of the heart. May you travel from head to heart and find the truth and connection of your higher selves with gentle ease! Namaste" my friends Peace and love Georgia Rose
I am clearing and climbing out. Heavy but light. I have walked through yet another tunnel. I am in a lush forest with things I have never seen before. All better than anywhere I have ever yet been. My footfalls are not lonely. I have two feet - like quiet companions holding hands in silence. They step one beside another never faltering. I am my strongest soldier, most steadfast supporter and bravest defender. I am alone, yet, not separate. I feel other hearts in the world beat against mine and I know there are many like me in this same beautiful space. Coming home.. this is coming home to me. The trees are greener and the air sweeter. Stars twinkle above even though it is daylight. I look up in awe and on the blackboard of my sky is written my lesson freshly learned, an open letter from the stars to those who dare to look up....
"DEAR PEOPLE of MY UNIVERSE: When we set boundaries that support our own self love and growth and decide to no longer allow another to dishonor, or be unkind to us that is not judgement. It is discernment. It is love. Love for yourself to honor the divine being that you are and love for the other. By no longer participating in a negative cycle that effects both your souls and karma you are giving love to yourself and them. Some may call you "holier than thou" , and label this as "high road bullshit" , that is their judgement of you and it is none of your business and only their journey. You see judgement makes something good or bad, positive or negative, the result is to condemn or deny. Judgement feels bad. Discernment feels good. Discernment is nourishment, truth and growth. Stay in your discernment and nourish your soul."
I smile at the lesson as gratitude wells up in me. My soul loves to eat, and I've just had a sweet!. And that is why I move on, move up and keep turning, turning towards the light. Always, looking this way and that for the nourishment light brings. I grow stronger and keep reaching for this beautiful life. Like antique silver that you keep polishing and turning over, the patina of my soul gets more remarkable with each swipe of the cloth against it. I take inventory and clear the tarnish with great care and my own loving hands until I shine again! Golden light full of promise reflects back to me then, in all different ways as synchronicity takes flight. Discernment brings the clearing of debris that gives space to see beautiful masterpieces. The perfectly timed opportunities, great loves, open hearted connections, like hearted friends, natures beauty and bounty, deep listening, doggy kisses, cool pillows and warm breezes, refreshing water and indulgent massage, children's innocence and wise old wisdom, birds song and raindrops on our tongue.. All the things of life that go unnoticed and we miss, when we are in the tunnel, in the judgement, tarnished and dull, come forward in Presence.
Allow No one and nothing to tarnish your existence and dull your experience of this beautiful life. Others should nourish our life and show us more beauty. Yes, Instead of thinking about another's unkindness tell yourself this: I have important work to do and so I will leave behind their tunnel and come into the light. Maybe one day my love or that of another will be a light that helps them find their way out too. Maybe one day we will polish our silver together. But I will never stop polishing mine and if I hang out by you, I too will tarnish. Light was meant to shine. So look behind those clouds , walk through the tunnel, discern who should be walking with you and who tarnishes your light. Only look up and ahead at the light!
Thank you 7 planets in retrograde and Mars square Uranus you have taught me much today! Peace and love Georgia Rose <3 <3
Sometimes we fall from Grace. Sometimes the world annoys us and casts us adrift and we don't even know why. Maybe its Mars retrograde or Saturn conjunct our something or maybe we are just working through our "stuff". We are human after all and that condition often means we tend towards duality, seeing things good or bad, positive or negative. I think of it as the see saw effect. We can't stay on top all the time. What goes up must come down. We can't avoid it, We can only hope it is a gentle landing instead of a kerplunk. So a couple of days ago I landed. It was more of a kerplunk.
I was tired and overwhelmed, like I said maybe it was the retrogrades or maybe it was this sometimes overwhelming thing called life, but I became negative. Not like me at all - and I was too tired to realize it. Burnt out from this intense summer of self analysis ad naseum I could no longer indulge in deep awareness. I was cranky and tired of people and their less than nice behavior. I became judgmental and well dare I say kind of bitchy! Yes me! Hard to believe eh? A close friend advised me to check myself, with a gentle reminder to be careful what energy I put out. I could not see what she meant. My mind was depleted,and my heart was tired. I was worn out, like a teddy bear that got thrown in the bathtub, my fur was matted and the mirror was fogged!
When she and I hung up the phone I could tell it wasn't a good conversation but I felt clogged and spacey so I just tossed it to Spirit and asked Him to show me why I was feeling thus. It didn't take long before I felt my heart stir back to life with gratitude that my friend loved me enough to watch out for my Karma. And just that bit of positive light started to turn me around! Sometimes the words don't get thru but the mere intention of the action breaks the dark and it brings a shard of glitter, that otherwise you would have missed. Gratitude will do that it can catch even the tiniest bit of light.
i meditated for a bit then, because I had someone coming for a reading. I felt much better as I felt my vibration rise.Thinking about my friends phone call and the love it was intended with. I realized I was not paying attention to my spiral into negative energy. I was careening down a slippery slope, when she cared enough to tap my brakes. It made me happy that I have surrounded myself with such a fine person as that.
My client came and we had our reading, which was most amazing! My client was a very high vibe enlightened individual who I had never met before. A truly beautiful soul! I felt privileged to read her energy and deliver healing messages. Much of what we spoke of was healing to me as well. It is usually that way. Messages are not always just for clients sometimes there is a lesson from Spirit for me as well. Synchronicity came rapid fire as words resonated deeply. "Another miracle in my living room, thank you God", I thought to myself during the reading! . As I conversed with Spirit and my client, my mirror cleared, my fur perked up. I hugged myself because I needed it. I accepted my soft and jagged spots and gave the love to myself that I often give away. I felt nourished and replenished and once again in the light and positive place that I live in. When the client and I hugged goodbye I could feel the love of Spirit wrapped around my heart and was beyond grateful for the connection.. The meeting was a gift.
The reading was done psychically with no cards but after the client left I was compelled to draw a card from an Angel deck I keep on the table. ..and look what I got-
. A beautiful kiss goodnight from a constant source of light that never dims even when ours wanes. We just have to pay attention! Peace and Love - Georgia Rose
Thoughts from the SHOWER:
My hands are shampooing, but my mind is conditioning. I am still reflective after this summer of retros. The season of turning and twisting planets, of shadows and light, is still creasing my brain and stirring my heart. The energy is eclipsing my thoughts as though I am a partner in the dance of the moon and sun. I think it will always be that way no matter what the time of year. I know each season of my life has its own curriculum and I am graded on growth, so I best pay attention.
But, this paying attention thing can get tricky. Like shaving your legs over mosquito bites, you must look ahead. We often don’t see very far, we worry too much about the obstacle in the way.
I’m reminded of the time I was 9. It was a hot August day and my Dad was driving back from Montauk. I was squeezed in the back seat of the Buick between my 2 sisters. Dad suddenly pulled over at a scenic spot and my sisters and I bolted spontaneously for the ocean. They were 10 and 12 years older than me and so brave! They played with the waves and weaved and dodged. I was scared, the waves were so big! I focused on the huge white tops and the motion of them as I followed my sisters across the sand. I could not look away or be left out! I stared at the big wall of water in front of me and knew it would swallow me up – and of course as soon as my little feet hit the water that was exactly what happened. Pulled under and drenched but saved by my older sissies! Whew!!
Sometimes we pay attention to the wrong thing! We get carried out on a wave, tossed around a bit and aren’t sure where else we should look. We are focused on the churning, the helpless feeling and all we can think about is the panic creeping in. Without direction, the wave can possess us then and take all our focus. Soon we are struggling against it not seeing anything else in our line of vision. We tell ourselves this is where we need to focus, or we will drown. And we fixate on the wave and not letting it get the best of us. But whether we are 9 or much older it will get the best of us, if we focus on nothing else! The best thing we can do is pay attention to what is past the wave, focus on the other side of it, and how we can get there.
Sometimes we pay more attention to the obstruction,instead of looking past it.
Standing in the shower, washing my face I open my eyes. I wonder if my dog has joined me in the bathroom or is elsewhere making mischief. I look out the shower doors. One side of the door is foggy and spotted with rain. The other crystal clear so I can see past it.
Wow! I look through the clear side to see if Sparky is there. And my brain clicks like watch gears in place. I've just had a synchronization....an aha moment...
We Choose which side we want to see! How different the scene is when we Look past the obstruction, to see there is more! Clarity!
As I dry off I am in gratitude. Thanks Spirit! I get it! We can’t get to the life we dream of, if we focus on the things in our way. We must see past the obstacles and things that obstruct our view. Be far sighted! Everything has 2 sides. One is distorted and confusing and foggy and obstructed. The other one is clear and open and easy. We choose what we look at. We choose our focus. The wave or the other side.
This paying attention is tricky. I must pay attention to what I am paying attention too. Wow, great shower! Peace and love Georgia Rose
I learned a very important lesson today. Today I learned about another facet of gratitude. We think of gratitude as an easy emotion, one that should bubble up from within effortlessly. But for some people authentic gratitude isn’t possible.
It was a sad lesson to learn. Or maybe sad is just one word, disappointment seems to be sandwiched in there. Yes, this lesson is sad and disappointing like most illusions are. I know broken illusions although painful, are the universe gifting us with an opportunity for a new reality but sometimes you need to shake your head clear before you can see that.
You see, my attitude is almost always based on gratitude and forward movement. Oh sure I stumble once in awhile and I may have a day of self pity after a particular nasty challenge but then I get up and I do. I create and conquer.
First off, because I love myself too much to stay down and be a victim. It’s boring and monotonous and I like adventure and building things. Second, if I stay a victim I’m in direct opposition to my nature and lifeblood, which is gratitude. So I self correct and can never stay down long. I want to be happy and in gratitude so I strive towards creation, future, movement joy. I can’t stay stuck , it goes against every cell in my body.
Some may read this and think oh lucky her she makes it sound easy!
Let me assure you my life has been anything but easy. LiKe many of you, I pulled my self up from horrific circumstances more than once in life. The fact is I fought so hard that I can’t go back to misery. I cherish my gratitude and honor it as a living breathing thing because I had to fight so hard for it.
You can’t be miserable and feel grateful. And so I fight to keep my door closed against misery with all I’ve got, when it comes a knocking.
Today I learned misery has many forms. It does not have to be ugly or tragic. Sometimes it’s a friend you love, a heart you connect with, or family member you respect. Things start out great and your relationship is strong. Maybe they are a bit down on their luck so you extend a hand to help them up. It feels good to help and share with another. Maybe your paying it forward the way another once helped you. Your motives are pure you want nothing from them.
But then you hit a bump. They suspect your motives, after all, no one has ever been this kind to them before. You smooth things over, you work at the connection. But their doubts keep repeating, your motives questioned, their suspicions always aroused. They accuse you of not trusting them when nothing is farther from the truth. Finally, everything you say and do is twisted to suit their agenda to prove that you don’t trust them.
It’s sad. It’s frustrating. You begin to edit and censor your words, texts, emails, actions trying to prove your trust.
And then in a moment of clarity you see yourself in the mirror. And you realize you have broken your own rules. You are no longer free to be your authentic self..you are en edited sanitized version trying to keep balance where it is impossible. All for the sake of a connection, that suspects and accuses you regularly of ulterior motives.
You begin to see that other person is miserable. In their misery they can not trust, they have no gratitude for who you are to them . They simply don’t trust you. In fact they are afraid of you. Afraid you will disappoint them, afraid you will abandon them. And in that fear and misery and mistrust they end up driving you away.
And afterwards they are comfortable and more than relieved the connection is over because they get to be the victim. That is their starring role , they get to lick their wounds and it feels good to them. You are labeled a narcissist. Which makes sense only to them. They will cry and may even post a platitude about gratitude in their painful state. But the truth is not in their illusion but in your escape from it.
I know because I was them, Until I became me.
A me that knows you can’t be miserable and grateful. You can’t be a victim and a creator. You cant be powerful and powerless. You have to choose one. Strong people choose gratitude and powerfully co create with it.
Others stay in misery and can not truly feel gratitude. They become powerless over their lack. They blame everyone else for their situations and can’t seem to break out of cycles. Their energy is misspent on being miserable. My heart goes out to those people as I said I was them once. It a very painful and unconscious way to live. But we can’t hold on to a connection where we must fight for our trustworthiness to be recognized. We can’t be part of a manipulation that destroys our authenticity. We can’t allow another to steal our gratitude. We can only hope it finds them wherever they are as we send it their way without playing their game.
Yes today I learned to be steadfast in my truth. To Hold tight to my sincerity, even when I am misjudged. Today I learned sometimes harsh words are true words and that your soul grows bold when it speaks them. I learned that your light grows brighter when you are saving yourself. And that sometimes helping yourself before another is the right thing to do. You will know ...today I swear I heard the angels clapping! peace and love Georgia Rose
Something to be careful of... Some people create fires then act shocked when they are burned. Then they take to social media to get validation for their victim status. They tell one side of a story to get the reaction required to feed their victim stance. They don't care what effect this has on the person they vilify. In fact people love negative. Negative posts will get much more attention and comments than positive ones. And so it becomes a form of control and abuse. As the comments continue to stack up in the posters favor insulting the person they wrote about the poster is more and more validated and feels good so they keep doing it. They don't have any regard for anyone but themselves.
I ask you isn't it a contradiction, a hypocrisy that while making themselves appear kind hearted and loving by the distorted content of the post - the mere fact they are posting thusly shows their true intent to hurt and disparage another?
Shouldn't we as open hearted and loving individuals observe which bus we get on before we travel an injurious road. In looking at a one sided post are we taking sides? Are we commenting on a "story" ,a distortion or an actual happening?
And why does no one ask what actually happened.
I have lived over half a century. One thing I can tell you with great certainty is that no one "attacks without provocation".
While it is a choice to act or retreat no one does either without a trigger, a push or a reason of some kind. If someone is burned chances are they started a fire or at least had a hand in throwing some kindling in the stove. Facebook is both a bully's and a victim's dream platform. It is a place where we can incite sympathy or anger at the click of a button.
When I first joined FB I vowed to use it to promote positivity, wisdom and/or humor in a lol at myself way. I think I have done that.
I don't live my life on FB. You rarely see personal pictures of me with loved ones except for friends now and again. Rarely is there family or boyfriend photos. Its just not my style. I am a private person trying to function in acceptable parameters of social meter. I have learned what is acceptable to me. I do not post out of boredom or loneliness. I try not to post simply for validation. I live my life through my own two eyes I don't have a need for anyone elses eyes to be on me for no productive reason. I especially don't need to come here for sympathy, or negative reinforcement. I come here to be fun, lighthearted or stir hearts with my writing. I come here to educate with astrology and Spiritual theories. If I post a grrr type of post I try to make it funny in a relatable way so maybe we can learn from each other. I never specifically post about a person.
If I do mis step and post something that is not entirely positive or just plain stupid I delete it pretty quick.
I am private but truthful. If there is anything you want to know just ask. I will tell you if it's none of your business. I will tell you if I screwed up. I will tell you if I did a great job. I will tell you if YOUR screwed up..lol. But I will always tell you the truth. There are things the whole world on FB does not need to know. there are things my friends do need to know. There are things my friends already know. I am ballsy and compassionate, harsh and gentle, kind and sharp witted. Devoted and completely irreverent. Im driven and focused and will alternate between telling you to get out of my way and stooping down to carry you.
My Scorpio moon sometimes sting. My Sag humor will have you in stitches and my Libra heart will always keep score and see your side too. It's all fair and balanced and usually motivated by love. But I have boundaries. Don't walk across my fire and cry when you get burned.
When another chooses to attack and disparage me and make me a vilain by distorting the truth or maybe I should say by posting "their" truth, I don't respond. Th best we can do is send love and shine on!
I will simply let the essence of me and and the love I stand for be the answer.
IN THE STILLNESS OF THE NIGHT
It was time to prepare. I knelt on the cold floor of my living room, one morning last February. While Deva Premal chanted the beautiful “Om Namo Bhagavate” I found my truth and my courage. The vibrational sound heard by millions of people over 4 thousand years swirled around me and resonated deep in my heart as my body shook and the tears fell. “I bow to you Lord, put me in service to the world”. “Thy will be done”
Soon I tasted the familiar. The calm knowingness that is felt deep in the soul when truth is revealed. It is hard to describe. It is heavy but not with weight. It is heavy with light. Truth is powerful, the only thing I know to be indisputable and indestructible – yet it is not dense with it’s power it is ultimate light. And there is a profound message in that.
On this day its sword cut through my confusion, sliced through my fear and shined clarity in my soul. I knew what I was called to do. My divine purpose had been revealed a long while before, but now I suddenly accepted the doing of it. The truth of my reason for being was no longer an idea or a task to be done. The time had come to prepare to go out in the world and BE it.
Being a prophet, a healer, a psychic, a seer, a visionary, a healing light to the world just IS – there is no argument of it, no fear of it, no how can I, what should I, or but, but, but. I knelt on the floor alone on a cold February morning surrounded by a million Angels and Ascended Masters and loved ones that had past and I felt all those who had gone before me. And I realized the magnitude of the work I was called to do, and I felt no fear, no doubt and no confusion. It was all very simple. It had nothing to do with me. It was about the world. A far greater love than just what filled my heart, was encompassing me in a web of energy and asking me to spin it farther and wider. It was inconceivable that I would not step up, step out and step forward to answer it’s call.
I was reminded of my first deep meditation 7 years before when St Germaine came to me and gave me my main task in life: “Put Love Where There Is None” he simply said.
The time had come to fully step into my purpose and get on with the business of BEING it.
I spent the next 5 months preparing. I was reconciling some things until I was absolute that the time was right. I stopped doing private readings and pulled back on my healings as I went deep to get to the place of perfection where I had no doubt, no fear and just a pure heart to approach the work with. Finally, summer came, and I was ready. The planets were aligned and signs from Spirit confirmed the timing. Finally, the day came for the new debut.
July 27, 2018- In about 6 hours I would be leading a group of 30 people in a Full Moon / Eclipse Ceremony on a boat on the Great South Bay. I was committed to communicating messages to them as well. I was very calm and joyful. My excitement was of love and beauty. This is how I knew it was right. It resonated deeply and it all felt aligned. I could feel the presence of Spirit around me and the Angels singing and supporting me.
It was time to prepare. I pulled the blinds, put on music and meditated placing the boat in a protective sacred space, I would continue this once on board. I sent love to each person planning to board and to the Captain and set my intention for the evening. There is a beautiful and dignified strength that inhabits you when you know you are doing what God wants of you. Great certainty abounds and mixes with love to cause your heart to burst with joy. I was in this state even before boarding the boat. Because I knew Spirit was going to deliver great healing and insight to many and use me in His process. “Thy Will Be Done”.
As my feet stepped on to the boat I stepped aside and allowed Spirit to take over. When my glittery sandal hit the wood boards of the boat I whispered “Om Namo Bhagavate” and “Elohim Essaim, I Implore you” and let it rip.
The evening was beautiful. When I got on the boat I could feel tension and some negative energy. It assailed me at first – I felt pain and heartache, loss and grief in the air. Like a huge question mark hanging in the air as 30 people wondered what she is going to do, and will this help me. People were in challenge- well isn’t that why they are led here I thought. But I wasn’t expecting such intensity. Still it didn’t shake me – I had to be the Sheppard, reign in the ugly and make it good. I had to see the repulsive emotions and turn them inside out. Spirit had clearly shown me my task in this life. I quietly asked His guidance to give comfort and healing and he did not disappoint.
From the moment I opened sacred space by invoking the 4 directions the energy changed. We became sealed in a bubble of energetic light. Like a ghost ship sailing above the tide, we were suspended in a time warp where there was only us, the sea and Creator. The sky was cloudy. I lamented that there would be no sunset and no moon rise. Our main attraction missing. My disappointment in that was noticeable. Like going to a concert and missing the main act. But as the evening progressed I realized the main attraction was obscured for a reason. In the stillness there were answers.
These times of eclipses and planets in retrograde are for contemplation. We were here to revisit the past for answers. To take responsibility for what has gone before and our part in the patterns and the challenges of our lives. Wounds were being opened in the weeks leading up to the eclipse, so that we could finally cauterize them and heal them with truth. This was the power of the summer cosmos. This was the revelations the universe was providing and bringing to a head with these eclipses. If indeed a magnificent sunset or gorgeous blood moon had graced the sky it would have distracted us from the work, we were set here to do. This night was about the dark and letting it rise to the surface. The soul work requiring our attention was to be done without distraction. The focus was to be within not external. The letting go and release about to happen was not just a mental commitment. No, this was release felt in the emotional body to rid us of it once and for all. It would wind its way through us to deliver the answer. But we would come to realize the answer is always the same: LOVE
I led us in a meditation invoking the moon energy. I asked the moon to speak through us and give us the remedy for our healing. And many remedies came that held individual and specific meaning for each of us. Afterward, as I sat briefly with each passenger and chatted or extended a message it was clear Spirit was working magic and giving many revelations. But there was an even larger “remedy” that came on board with us that night. An obvious yet unexpected answer to many of our troubles. A universal enhancement to all our lives.
Yes, it is true – Spirit works in strange ways, but it is also true that the way of that is always absolute and his will.
I spoke that night of our need of each other and community. I implored everyone not to isolate in their challenges and growth but to reach out and be in unity with each other. Because that is how we heal- in the sharing of our stories and experiences. And I watched it happen right before my eyes. Old friends reacquainted, new friends made and even some random strangers finding out they grew up together. As we sailed in a bubble of love and light, powerful changes happened. I saw smiles and joy where frowns and tension had been. I saw lightness release burden. I saw love replace the illusion of sadness. As the sail was nearly ended the sky opened and the wind kicked in. We ran for cover.
30 people who had greeted me 3 hours earlier with half smiles and tension, worried about the rain, curios how the evening would go- now all found themselves huddled inside a cabin laughing and joking and asking when we could do this again. There were hugs and gratitude for messages and insights received. And hope that good times were ahead. Many were making plans to do other things together and support each other. A Community was created, and other communities were born from its seed already. I stood off to the side and observed the work of God in progress and it was more beautiful than I can describe.
We had all put love where there is none. I was watching the creation of the meaningful. Only love is real the rest all illusion. It was amazing to see the changes in everyone from the way their energy felt 3 hours earlier.
Gratitude overwhelmed me. I stood on the stern as my last guest left and I felt tears prick my eyes. It had stopped raining and I stood at the rail under the black sky. I absorbed the silence, the stillness and the energy of this night in my cells, I let it permeate every fiber of me to store the energy of this love within my being. I knew it would empower me for more of this work. Like electricity charging a battery to grow more and more, love would grow my soul. I felt Spirit wrap His arms around me happy I had stepped aside hours earlier in this very spot to allow His will. I felt perfection wash over me. My Captain came out and said, “C’mon let’s go home”. I already am, I thought as I grabbed my bag of crystals and walked toward the car.
PERSECUTION: So many of us feel this energy rising now as we engage patterns of a circular nature that all lead to the same energy. It seems while the situations in our life differ the feelings and emotions are the same. We feel persecuted, restricted , held down. For many of us relationships especially are taking on the patterns of childhood experiences where we were abused or stifled or sometimes both. And by relationships, I don't just mean romantic but all partnership and relationships. In many ways these harsh karmic patterns are surfacing in our current lives to empower and heal us but also to clear many generations of karma.. They are dredging the bottom of our souls until we feel gutted and purged.Of course before we get to that state of reconciliation there is anger and upheavel and imprisonment in the emotions. Again the cycle I have been referring to in previous posts - the breakdown>breakthrough>breakout.
I am reminded today that these patterns of persecution indeed do go back farther in our lineage than we sometimes understand and clearing them is made all the more difficult as the dredge scrapes deeper.
Two years ago I had a reading and soul song written for me by the amazing Rick Batyr. It was life changing and empowering beyond description, but of course gut wrenching before the empowerment stage. Again the triangular cycle of break out...is never easy. It came out during the reading as we meditated together, traveling into the Akashic records, that I was Joan of Arc in a previous life. Now when we say things like that let me clarify it. I prefer to say, I align with the lifetime and energy of Joan. Since time is linear and all happening at the same time, many of us were and will be Joan of Arc. Someone is her right now. But that discussion is for another post .... Back to matters at hand. ... So the energy of Joan and I merging in a past life, came through and I immedietly began to feel her and the persecution of her and it related to my story. I began to cry and feel a heavy heart. But Rick said, " I feel her incredible strength and the love she had for her people". The emotions I was feeling immediatly flipped over. That reading became a catalyst for my healing and break out of a very deep Karmic pattern. I worked for a months to reconcile that energy and when I came through the tunnel it was a rebirth and remebrance. The persecution , the not being heard, the voice silenced, the imprisonment , the voice not silenced, the call to arms for a belief, the tenacity of complete faith in God.. the strength and courage even as I was walked to my funeral pyre...all of Joan was experienced by me. And I aligned completely with her.
For those of you who do not know the story...Joan of Arc was a french girl in her teens who heard the voice of God compel her to lead France to victory during their war with England. With absolute belief in this voice she was able to convince Prince Charles to allow her to lead an Army. ( a girl of 15) and she won the battle. Eventually she was executed by Anglo French forces and burned at the stake for witchcraft and heresy. You see in the 1400's anyone who heard the voice of God was deemed a heretic, unless you were a Priest, who were thought to be divine. That is how the church controlled people and all things, if you wanted to speak to God you did it only through a priest, no one else was worthy of speaking to God.
That reading with Rick and the soul song he composed for me are with me still. I honor both Rick and myself and that shared epiphany brought to us by Spirit- by bringing the energy of Joan into my life regularly. She is not only one of my guides and an energy that inhabits my soul but she is my strength and often my inspiration and champion. Many times while in challenge I let the energy of my dear sweet Joan wrap around me and she works with me, a powerful spirit of deep abiding love and strong courage. Her absolute knowing and trust in our creator is more solid and unwavering than I can describe . To have a piece of her within me is a super power and a blessing.
This is just one example of how deep the Karma playing out in our current lives may be.
"My " dear sweet Joan is not mine alone..she rides for all of us in the Spirit of truth and knowing, free for all eternity. She rides across heaven with her sword of light, touching each of us with the warriors heart and infusing us with our super powers. The woman who was burned at the stake for much of what we lightworkers do today is our champion. Honor her with our break outs, tell your stories let the power of Joan guide you as I have. She is my ancestor, my soul and my light and courage. I honor her energy within me through this work. The work she never got the chance to do...
Happy Bastile day! Sing your soul song and ride into your life victorious and bold like the beautiful Joan!
Peace and love - Georgia Rose
Breaking out! We all have our stories- the ones we tell and the ones we would rather die 10,000 painful deaths before telling. As painful as breaking down and breaking through our fears to truth is, often the most painful part is the break out. Our fear of judgement and ridicule at sharing our experiences can leave us paralyzed in a life of pseudo truth and half reveals that never allow another to truly know us or learn from our heavily trod karmic footprints. I often speak of the breakdown>breakthrough>breakout process. Why? Because it is the triangle that gives us our foundation and reveals the purpose of our soul.( I am currently working on a large project to benefit us all in regards to this. The reveal will be in the fall.)
This process which is exclusive to the human species is one that forms our greatest strength and happens many times during our life. As our emotions respond to the truths revealed during painful break downs and breakthroughs we find tremendous strength in them. The purging and letting go allows more light into the crevices that we held tightly bound from view and we become more openhearted and steadfast inside. Our souls shift in this light and open space and we eventually become wholehearted as those spaces are filled with things that are born from the new light that the process has allowed in during breakthrough. When we are wholehearted we want to give more and our Spirits want to reach for love. No longer in fear, isolating parts of ourselves or keeping slices of our soul in deprivation we start to crave more than what we allowed ourselves to settle in. We long to share love and friendship and so we reach for it. Like tree branches longing for more sun we bravely reach for that which nourishes us further and we thrive. The root of our strength grown in the breakdown>breakthrough>breakout process usually results in outstanding triumph. An amazing and beautiful journey!
And yet we often fear sharing it. Why? One answer = Shame. Shame is a crippling emotion. Until it is released we are often powerless and so busy living in survival mode that we can not compensate for it no matter how hard we try. When shame buries us underneath its heavy putrid blanket we can't love, we can't let light in, we are too wounded and always ready to fight and defend. You can't make peace with clenched fists. You can't hug with both guns cocked. When you are in shame the hardest thing to do is open your palm and turn it up to the world, and say "here I am , look at me". Shame does not allow sharing of oneself. The fear of judgement and ridicule is the great silencer of this world. And we all participate as offender and offended. So maybe we could stop that....
Stop judging. Huge order, how can we do this? Well, we can begin today...with ourselves. Stop judging yourself. The energy that created you is standing in your presence right now holding arms open to accept you and see your beauty. Step into those arms and let it all go - all the shame and ugly thoughts you tell yourself. That is the first step to a world where we all put love where there is none.
As I said we all have a story...mine is revealed quite boldly in this blog I started 5 years ago. on my web site at www.georgiaroseconnection.com The Rose Blog is a telling of many persona experiences along my journey. In fact, it is so revealing that I lost friends over it. But I don't care because the "break out" was the most important part of my triangle. The trifecta of loss can not come full circle until we reach back to empower another with the triumph we are blessed with. I write about my tragedy and triumph in the hopes of helping just one other person triumph. My life is my teacher and my best friend. It took years to reconcile that and see beauty in repulsive things. I write about cancer and death and reiki and loss and discovery and all the crazy weird ups and downs that make us connected. My shame was great, my fear even greater.
But I poked through to reveal myself, white knuckles on keyboard shaking at the thought of others reading my words, because even as they flow through my tears and into the page I know Spirit is gifting them to me. In the beginning, as my bruised and battered heart poured out in the blog, I could feel years of ugliness and judgement release. I was stepping into my power, no longer powerless over the voices inside, I heard Spirit. Spirit lifted my shame and replaced it with love and connection from all of you. Yes, once again triumph. Now that still sometimes happensand I write from grief. But more often now, my words come from miracles now occurring in my everyday life. Miracles that I now see and was blind to before my breakthroughs. I look forward to more of them, in my challenges there eventually is more awakening.
But my story starts long before...
I was a lost little girl, in a very abusive chaotic home. By age 11 psychiatrists diagnosed me with PTSD. I never went to high school, I was home schooled because of agoraphobia. I rarely left the house for a few years. I guess you could say that I was the only one in my graduating class. My isolations were very deep rooted. Back then, prescription drugs were the answer to everything, so they drugged me, kept me mutable. Prescriptions and sedatives given to a fearful child in between beatings and harsh punishments. I now know I was receiving messages and energy from other realms, that I did not understand. I was highly sensitive. My father abandoned me at 13. That may have been a good thing but it caused more trauma, that I carried my lifetime. At 18 I broke free of some fears and became functional, small jobs, friends for the first time. Only to marry young. My first husband was someone who beat me bloody and stole my soul. It is true- We live what we learn. I escaped one day by climbing out a window and lived with friends, penniless, with nothing but the clothes on my back, I rebuilt my life at 25. I was determined to be something even while everyone around me didn't think I could. At 30 I got a real estate license. I found people started to listen to me, and I was in control. I became one of the top brokers on long island. I married well, I had a life I never dreamed of. Every abundance possible. And after 18 years of "everything" I was miserable, stressed unhealthy and ridden with anxiety. And in a 2 year period lost everyone and everything in 2011. Death, cancer, abandonment all came back to visit. Because I never faced them to begin with. Reduced to rock bottom, sick, broke and alone, I faced my shame, my abuse, my pain, and my own ugliness. And I found me. The real me. The heart of that little 11 year old girl who was receiving messages. The person I spent a life time blocking and throwing accomplishments and materialism on top of to hide the fact that she ever existed. Yes. when I stopped surviving I started thriving. That is why the breakdown>breakthrough>breakout is our salvation.
I have come a long way since that total rock bottom of 2011. I feel like I have lived a lifetime since then, reinventing and birthing myself. In some ways I have lived a lifetime since 2011, when I finally allowed myself to come out of the womb. I am finally living my real life- the one of joy and bliss and truth I was meant to live. I am authentically me and free to be so accepted and loved by myself and many others.
It was not easy to write this today. I know I have written you a book here...I have let you in to tell you that whatever phase of the triangle you are in keep going. Today my life is rich with meaningful relationships, a connection to Spirit and the other side that is infinite, a career that is amazing. The little girl who could not leave the house now speaks to audiences of hundreds and is an executive and industry leader. That little girl who was silenced with drugs and punishment now gets to speak to groups and teach Spirituality. No one will silence her again especially not shame, that little girl once silenced now speaks to Spirit every day without fear and is filled with gratitude for the simple Grace it brings. That soul will never be held down and is strong in her purpose and excited for the journey. I am a miracle. And so are you. Find your voice and then sing out... have no fear of judgement ...we are all waiting to hear you ... you should know what you have to say is important ..and saying it feels awesome! <3 <3 peace and love Georgia Rose > together we can heal the world! Peace and love Georgia Rose
This day and the days to follow you will read and watch many posts,about eclipses and moons and retrogrades and crystalline light and invoking intentions and ascended masters. You will hear much about sudden endings and eruptions and breakups and breakdowns. Karma and evolution and enlightenment - the words will relentlessly circle social media and the galaxy!
But what's it all really about? What the hell does this energy want from us? Why is it ringng us out and forcing our choices? You may be asking yourself, why am I so emotional?
Why is this happening?
Well the universe wants our attention...and so does our higher self. But why?, We fight and resist and finally succumb to our discomfort when the tears come. We are exhausted from all this energy demands from us.
And still what's it all about..the loss of appetite, the restless sleep, the vivid dreams ,...and why the hell is the sky so blue today ..never saw that blue before....and my sense of smell- I think I just smelled grandma but she's dead, and yeah what about those sunsets, can't describe those colors, and OMG I just ran into somebody I haven't seen in 10 years and how did that card fall out of that book....and why am i crying over something that happened years ago, yup I get it....and, Yeah its all happening...
No matter how you sum it up, astrologically, spiritually, religiously, mentally, or ignorantly.. Its all about one thing.
This energy is about our power and it is demanding we step into the responsibility of its proper care and feeding. Yes, you heard right- this energy wants us to feed our power!
If you feel great and on track its because the universe is showing you where your power lies. If you are miserable the universe is showing you where you lose your power.
Think about that a minute, yup that's right, its true isn't it?
When we are in our power in sync with the light inside us, listening to our souls desire, the truth is we are pretty happy creatures. When we release or hand our power over to things and situations and others and don't take responsibility for our light within we are really miserable creatures. That's why I was happiest in the summer of 2015 bumming around fire island doing reiki and readings with no job or money just breathing doing yoga and grateful nobody in my life was pissing me off. I had swept my road clean of all the stuff that was torturing me and decided to just be with me and my soul. I bravely jumped off a cliff and left all "safe" things behind. Good call! It didb't take me long to realize all those "safe" things had been strangling me for years! Cutting off my air supply and restricting my spirit! I learned things most people never do and I met the most fantastic person I never knew. ME!
I really got to know her and she's a pretty cool chick. That alone gave me everything I needed, the power to live the rest of my life satisfied. Its very cool Knowing what's 'Enough' ....btw I am enough...
See, we confuse power with control. One is security the other is restriction. The journey to freedom is understanding which is which. Only in our own power are we safe. Control and the need of it is fear. Fear restricts us and holds us back from our power.
That's why we stay in the illusion that we are 'safe' in situations that are harmful, stressful jobs, addictions, bad partnerships. Our fear restricts us so bad,we can't see truth. And that's what this energy is... It is reality, plain and simple. and we spend so much time avoiding certain reality that they are giving us a spanking now...and we really don't like it!
Yes - Reality, spontaneous and harsh reality. Why? To wake us the hell up and make us powerful.
This energy is shaking us up to show us those truths we avoid.
I spent many years in solitude confronting fear, I lost alot of stuff I didn't want to.Let go of alot of people I love. Walked away from some really cool but not good for me stuff. I'm sure most of it still has my claw marks on it..lol. I learned through terrible pain. And I am writing this in the hopes of sparing someone that pain:
We are the mediators of our own reality. We sit between dark and light bargaining and creating a psuedo life trying not to face things that are scary in the dark. And that is just a big waste of time. Nothing is as scary as you think it is, our fear amplifies our illusions. And yet we put a barrier between seeing truth. That veil we put up in front of ourselves to keep us safe is actually separating us from the awareness of a reality that holds all our keys. That veil that has separated us from our worst fears is invisible now.. This energy, these eclipses and retrogrades are thinning the veil so sheer we have to look at reality. The veil is barely protecting us anymore. We can no longer escape, the light is so bright it pierces all and makes the veil fall away. We have to look at the good, the bad and the ugly, we have no choice. This light makes us dominant over our own intuition and we can no longer turn away from truth. It begs us to step into our power it propels us forward by lighting under the veil all our illusions. This is a painful process but It brings understanding and knowledge like never before. It is a sometimes grueling process but it is happening and you can't stop it. The only way is go through it. And many many of us bravely do so to enjoy a life filled with bliss and peace. You can triumph and live aligned in this sweet reality to , don't let your fear stop you. Step into your power!
What does this energy want from us?
Once you understand and feel your power you must bring it to the world, not to control but to educate and empower. Just like the High Priestess pictured here from the Tarot Card, this is our opportunity to take control and rule our own destiny. Then reach out and help others by showing them how to do the same. In sharing the experience we bring truth to the collective of our race. We all become more powerful. Unified in reality and truth which the light has shown us by lifting the veil of our illusions.
In this light the human race is evolving as never before. Ultimetly, to live in love not a fear based mentality! But it starts with each of us on an individual level facing fear, breaking it down, breaking through the restriction, to break out and put our mark on the world. No easy task...so we don't sleep so good, so we lose a partner or quit a job in the scheme of things its pretty silly that we let it all control our lives when there us a much bigger shift happening.
I know its hard but don't fear the unknown. Its just someplace you have not discovered yet we make it bad because we are in fear. That illusion casts darkness. That is why we often get more of the same challenges and get stuck in a circle. We create that. We lose power. When we step into the light and harness power we change our outcome to positive. In this we heal each other and we can all heal the world. Peace and love Georgia Rose
This weekend we have a GRAND WATER TRINE = AS THE CANCER SUN TRINES NEPTUNE IN PISCES AND JUPITER IN SCORPIO they form a triangle in the sky or "trine". Trines are harmonious.. As Jupiter expands the light of the sun and both planets highlight dreamy and psychic Neptune we get a respite from the intense energy that we have been processing. Some of us will feel better able to cope and process this week. We also have a grand cross formation which can bring jarring and unexpected news but the Grand Trine will help with it's processing. Take time to nest with friends and family, stay close to home,or go out locally in nature, the beach the park and observe and trust what is coming up for you.I describe more spiritually in my lengthy post below. This is a powerful summer of endings,beginnings and many illusions broken. Trust! It all ends well my lovelies so let it flow and trust! Sending love to all Georgia Rose
THE HEART KNOWS...
It has come to my attention that there are things we create and there are things that are divinely created. We create out of need, want , desire, those things that satisfy our own cravings, Our need for love. Happiness and safety is sometimes settled, fed and satisfied by relationships, objects, and sensations we create so we don't feel the hunger, thirst, loneliness or hollow of our pain and discomfort. We fill our life with these things, created just so we don't have to deal with any of the emotions that are a consequence of our lack. More times than not, these things created by our own doing put us in confusion, stress and discomfort as we try to fit the illusion of their "rightness" into our lives and hearts and souls.
But the heart knows...
Like a beautiful shoe we can't resist wearing, even though they are a size too small - we suck up the blisters for awhile telling ourselves how "pretty " and "hot " they are. We will break them in and they will fit just fine sooner or later... We simply can't live without them! The degree to which we will suffer through for fashions sake is different for each of us. Some of us will break free of this illusion at first skin rub. others of us need bloody heels and stinging pain to catch on. THESE SHOES DON'T FIT! The heart knew all along, we just were not ready for the disappointment! We get mad and sad when we realize it was all just an illusion.
Illusions are necessary to the human condition. Sometimes they are the period of adjustment we need to chew our food instead of choking on a big bite, trying to consume life and our truth all at once doesn't work for us. While we chew, we learn what is too much and what is enough. Its all training for knowing what is real vs. unreal.
Ahh but always...
The heart knows. The soul knows. Before we are ready to listen we waste an inordinate amount of time silencing their voice, distracting ourselves with our illusion trying to convince ourselves of the "rightness" we glimpsed at it's creation. Finally we realize this shoe was not created for us but created by us...big difference huh?
Breaking free of illusion is painful and beautiful. Freedom is often like that! A bittersweet shower that washes silver down the drain to reveal our gold.
Illusions feel great when created and awful when lived. The things we think are security end up restrictions bringing us down into frustration and sadness forcing emptiness and dissatisfaction into our hearts. Sometimes we even feel unloved and neglected as our hearts squeeze shut. Illusions always separate us from the divine plan and purpose of our life. This is because we create illusion from fear. Something created from a negative energy will NEVER be positive.
Then in contrast, there are those things divinely created. These relationships, circumstances and possessions are truly "right" based in truth and right action.They are created by God, Creator to feed us deeply , nourish our spirit, enlighten our thoughts and ignite our hearts. They move us forward, not hold us in place. We are often powerless over these moments of creation, they catch us off guard, yet feel familiar. We do not create them they just ARE. They feel good from the start. Their ignition is not forced or manipulated or lusted for. The ignition has a positive key easily fitting, simply sliding into place in an open heart. We don't have to push and pull and prod these things and relationships into place. The work we do with them feels productive and satisfying.
How do divine things come to us? How do they happen?
How do we discern what is illusion created by us and what is real created for us?
WE open our hearts...remember the heart knows...
When we open our hearts we see truth. An open heart sees the meaningful. When our hearts are closed we create illusion to assimilate the things only an open heart can find. We create non genuine things that appear genuine for a brief time. But when our hearts are open so wide we can't ignore them, we are given genuine truth. Our lives become real. We gain a forward moment to creation and we become unstoppable!
In illusion we try to create love, peace , satisfaction in relationships to feel full. We look for completion driven by a lack created by fear, We look for this in the other who is driven by the same. You can't make positive from negative. Fear itself is an illusion. You can't make real from the unreal. You can't make meaningful from meaningless.
The heart knows...but we are stubborn, we want to control it all we want to "find" it so in our illusion we create it.
When we create from a wide open heart we create what is "real". In co creation with Spirit, God, Creator, by opening our hearts to create with HIM good things "find" us.
In this things are orchestrated by a universe that loves us unconditionally through no machinations of our own. The universe in its wisdom and love wants to show us the "real".
Divinely orchestrated and co created things rise us up, bring bliss, encourage us, bring us unity and deeper connection with our hearts. Those random conversations of total connection, the right place right time moments, the I can't believe this is happening experiences with no fear or doubt! When we are able to deeply listen to the heart we get more of this. THIS IS ENLIGHTENMENT.
Enlightenment brings us the capacity to separate illusion from real. And in reality our truth becomes divinely created and co created between us and God. A charmed life so to speak!
Of course the human experience is not always high vibes and lollipops even for the enlightened. We suffer. But it is because of our illusions we suffer. God does not create pain or suffering - we do.
By letting go of illusion and co creating with God we become the Alchemist changing and transmuting the energy in our lives to positive not negative.We become complete and no longer in need of escape and we create less illusions and more love. We find our bodies . mind, soul and business/ careers prosper and are healthy because we have aligned with truth and we are creating from positive energy not negative emotions.
2 things to live by:
1. I CAN NOT REALIZE THE FULLNESS OF MY NATURE UNTIL I BREAK FREE FROM THE ILLUSIONS THAT RESTRAIN ME. Georgia Rose 7/6/18
2. SOMEONE WHO BREAKS MY ILLUSION HAS OPENED UP A SPONTANEOUS AND MEANINGFUL REALITY FOR ME. -THANK THEM! Georgia Rose 7/6/18
Stop living an incomplete life imprisoned by your illusions. Co create with enlightenment and know you can manifest it all. Be complete and free! My videos and blog are created for this purpose. Transmuting from the unreal to the real! Yes we can have it all ! y♥ <3 Peace and love Georgia Rose
THURSDAY JUNE 28, 2018...AN ORDINARY YET EXTRAORDINARY DAY! I woke up on this day feeling a heavy loneliness, a feeling of separation ...of no one to love me. Although friends and my partner are always bopping on and out, there is no one in my life that comes home or I come home to, no one is coming home here but me, no kids, no parents, no spouse..sometimes it is a very long time between hugs and I have few that say "I love you". My heart hurt with the grief of it. I remembered how it was for many painful years when these feelings ate me alive..that grief, that hollow, where I lived. I write about those times and the slow painful transformation to these times in this blog.
I found the key, the truth of all that... I know now.. I am never alone..I have the love of creator, my angels, and many in the world that I feel love from. My life is devoted to healing that pain of separation in the world through the mission that is Georgia Rose Connection.
Nonetheless the feeling was heavy this day and I was trying to shake it off going through my daily paces. I stood at my kitchen counter preparing my lunch to take to work and said a silent prayer to God to help me not feel thus. This song came on. ..an answer right from Spirit.
I realized He answered me directly and as I felt our profound connection in my heart, a tear slid down my face. As always after I feel his grace I felt the connection with the world. I looked up and out my kitchen window and spotted my neighbors daughter pull into her Moms driveway to drop her children for Mom to babysit as she does daily before work. I saw these adorable toddlers in their little rain coats and umbrellas run up the path to Grandmas door. I felt their joy and I knew when Grandma's door opened she would surely embrace them in tight hugs. And I said a prayer of gratitude that Spirit allowed me to witness such love and synchronicity and to know love is all around me if I but pay attention. My mood changed and I felt love and loved all day.
My lessons of love did not end there. All day signs kept coming..it ended with a Reiki circle scheduled for that evening with my Breast Cancer group where some amazing messages from Spirit came through but I will write about that in another post.
For now just keep your heads up my lovelies and pay attention to all the love that surrounds you, because you are never alone! Peace and love Georgia Rose
Below is a preview from my forthcoming book.
THE CANCER MESSAGES by Georgia Rose
My beloved Aunt Loretta was like a second Mother to me and my siblings. She lived with us our whole life. “Aunty” read to us and taught us about the literary classics and all kinds of sophisticated and grown up things. She read me Aesop’s fables and took us to Broadway shows and helped us with our math homework.
She was a kind soul who often when out of her way to help others but suffered from much anxiety and so was not very good at helping herself. Her nervous condition limited her and manifested in many ways throughout her life. One of which was, she never became the published writer she wanted to be and in fact many things started during her lifetime were sadly never completed. That happens to many of us who find ourselves anxious and living in fear. Fear of life, fear of the freedom we crave, fear of success and fear of failure leaves us in a self-imposed prison where we are often too paralyzed to do anything with our life.
Growing up I had many fears and anxiety much like Aunty. I am afraid that when Aunty got cancer the me I always saw in her was suddenly hopeless and too much to examine.
I remember the exact moment I knew she was dying. My sister and I had been taking turns driving her to treatment for her cancer. On one of the days when it was my turn to chauffeur Aunty, afterwards I asked if she would like to stop for a bite to eat. She perked up at the idea and we stopped in to her favorite Pancake Cottage. She ordered her favorite pancakes and coffee.
We sat eating, chatting in quiet tones, she had lost a lot of weight and was very weary and sick. She took a sip of her coffee and it came out of her nose. Then more fluid came flowing out. There was all this grey matter that just kept running out of her nose and she kept trying to wipe it away and it was all just so bizarre. I stared speechless and her hazel grey eyes met mine with the most helpless look I had ever seen on another human being in my life. In that instance, I knew her body was betraying her, shutting down against her will and against my will too. The universe was screaming, it didn’t matter what anyone of us on this earth wanted. She was dying.
I sat in this innocuous diner having a life altering moment that stopped me in my tracks, yet all around me life kept moving as though it was nothing. I looked into those helpless grey eyes so filled with fear, and they mirrored all the emotions I felt. Our eyes clicked with the prick of electricity and sensations of lightning awareness flashed between she and I. As the chasm of space between life and death closed it was way too real. My emotions overwhelmed me and so I did what I was taught – I hid them for her sake. And maybe for my sake too because I was so very afraid.
I clicked into detachment and I pretended none of it was happening. But it was happening – unfortunately.
Aunty ended up in the hospital a few days later and things happened very quickly and pretty much without me after that.
I couldn’t bear the thought that I would end up like her. That the me I always saw in her would die incomplete, unhappy, unfulfilled. It ate my insides out. I had so much fear and anxiety in my own life that I would end up like Aunty. With not much of her own except the stories in books and her own unlived dreams, her was a sad life.
After that day at the pancake cottage I didn’t help much with her care. Once she was in the hospital actively dying I went to visit her and upon seeing all the tubes and my mother crying by the bed I left.
I walked down the hall and made a conscious decision to never go back. I told everyone that I didn’t want to see her that way and I would remember our precious Aunt in other ways.
The truth was I was a coward. I wasn’t there for my Mom in her sorrow. I wasn’t there for my siblings in their time of loss. Nor did I allow anyone to comfort me in my despair. I “didn’t get it”. I ran away and detached from it all. I buried my fear and grief. I didn’t tell anyone how I felt and didn’t ask anyone how they were feeling either.
I was terrified of cancer, of death and worse of living an unfulfilled life. I never grieved Aunty. Cancer took her life and my courage with it. But even as it did this, it taught me still. Yes, cancer once again taught me well.
Through my detachment I still felt strongly that I wanted to honor Aunties life in some way by finishing a dream of my own. It was the only way I could give myself hope and worthiness. If I could complete something it would break the cycle of fear and incompletion and loss.
When Aunty was dying I was attending classes to get my real estate license. This had been a dream for a long time and I was determined to stick it out and pass the licensing exam. Coincidentally a few days after Aunties death I took the test and passed. I got my license, on January 22. 1995 and that day I dedicated my career to Aunty. I had finished something in honor of all the things she couldn’t finish. For her, I would be a success and show the world that little girls who grew up abandoned by their fathers, too anxious and scared to live normal lives and chase their dreams, could flourish and be worthy of more.
I did this privately and never told a soul. Often during a disappointment or career slump I would go back to my original vow and it would pull me through. Thinking of Aunty and my promise to her to succeed would spur me on.
Cancer taught me it is a thief in the night, a dream robber, a succubus. But it doesn’t have to be if we pick up another’s torch and honor what it stands for. Then cancer doesn’t snuff it all out. Instead a seed grows for something greater in another heart when it picks up the torch left behind by the soul who carried it before.
The last time I saw my Aunt alive she was in the hospital intubated, unable to speak but awake. Her familiar grey eyes told me more than I wanted to know as I sat by her bed. We communicated with no words that day. I sat silently by her bed for a long time. Finally, after a while I hung my head and closed my eyes as sadness overtook me. I felt ashamed because I knew I wasn’t coming back. It was too much for me. When I looked up at Aunty tears were rolling down her face. I couldn’t come back. She knew and understood what I was feeling. I felt her heart speak to mine then and I was filled with love and forgiveness.
Cancer had ravaged her body but we both connected on another dimension. I felt her thoughts and she mine as we sat there. Cancer was once again bridging the realms for me. The dis ease the harbinger of transformation has a divine nature. It is a corridor that somehow connects us to joy and suffering and GOD. The mystery of creation and death solved when it is understood the two are unified. Polarity in its purest form. A conjunction of beginning and end vying for the same space.
Sometimes after Aunt’s death I would feel her or dream of her. It would frighten me. Before I was spiritual enough to understand it would give me chills and I would run to turn on the lights. But as years past, and I opened myself to study the higher self and universal energy, I came to understand the truth about those sensations. I now find comfort in the presence of past loved ones. Love is limitless, and we can feel it across the realms.
It was my experiences once opened to energy that made me realize our ability to communicate with our minds as Aunty and I did that day in her hospital room. I now have enjoyed that experience with many.
Years after Aunt’s death she would teach me a very significant lesson about how our loved one’s can reach out to show us their presence.
One holiday I was attending a family dinner at my sister Laura’s house. Laura is not a believer in energy transcending realms or anything “unseen” and much of it makes her uncomfortable. By this time, I was not only open to energy but was a Healer and doing readings and spirit communication professionally. This had become the main source of love and joy in my life. Working in the Spirit realms and feeling our Creators presence brought me alignment with my purpose. But I had some doubt about pursuing it further and still had a corporate world job and “normal” life. At times I would wonder how I could ever Segway into my spiritual work full time. I had much self-doubt that would ever be a reality, as much as I loved the idea.
However, I did not speak of these things around my sister and sort of just avoided all things spiritual when around the family. I was usually quite careful to sensor myself and I never wore crystals when attending family gatherings. But for some reason that day at my sister’s holiday dinner I wore a beautiful quartz crystal pendant. Sure, enough she remarked on it!
“Oh No”, I thought here it comes an afternoon of comments and side glances but instead she complimented it and then dismissed it. “Hmm”, now that was very strange. My sister was never supportive and barely ever non chalant about these things.
During desert I noticed Laura’s absence. Now this was totally out of character. You see, my sister is an expert baker and prepares deserts for weeks before the holidays. Desert is the highpoint of the year at her home! There is no way she would not be at the table during desert. It was just plain weird.
Before long she came back to the dining room carrying a small red pouch. “I think you should have these”, she said and handed them to me. I opened the pouch and inside were 4 beautiful crystals - a clear quartz entwined with silver dolphins, a chakra crystal, an amethyst pendant and a jade stone. As I finger them in my hand, puzzled, Laura said “They were Aunt’s” . “Aunty’s” I exclaimed, “I never saw these, but how”!
“Right before she died, she used to go to this spiritual shop in the village and buy stuff. Yeah, she got real spiritual and stuff then”, Laura said, very matter of fact, as though it was common family knowledge. Which let me assure you it was not.
I held the treasures and tears sprang to me eyes as I felt Aunty in a rush. I saw those beautiful hazel eyes, the helpless eyes that met mine that day at the pancake cottage and the knowing eyes so filled with love that day of our final visit in the hospital before she died. I never knew she sought solace in Spirit in things that are unseen, connecting with crystals and energy. As a silly selfish girl afraid of death, I ran away from Aunty’s final days. I missed out on what could have been a loving connection to Spirit years before I finally found my own way to Him.
Finally, I reasoned I wasn’t meant to have that lesson and connection with Aunty back then. I would not have understood it. I was meant to learn about transition and crystals much later. It was all priming me for this more meaningful moment.
When Aunty died I tried to find solace and solutions in the physical world. I did not know any other way. I used the physical world to honor a woman whose life was filled with “I cant’s” with an “I will”. I dedicated a successful Real Estate career in the 3D world to her and succeeded. It was my way of finding reconciliation with her death.
Aunty’s cancer, her death, in effect gave me a career. Yes, the divine disease that takes so much gave me the inspiration to make something of my life. By turning my fear and loss into a productive and honorable outlet I thrived on the physical plane of this world. I used that platform to serve many and as my soul developed it became a vehicle for me to give back to my community and grow the foundation of my altruistic nature.
Now, 22 years later my soul was at a cross roads. I was trying to leave behind my physical career for one that communed with Spirit in the nonphysical world. Unsure of my path and filled with self-doubt a sign had come from beyond. As I sat was holding the mysterious crystals hat belonged to the woman who had inspired my career path 22 years ago. The beautiful Aunt I had honored by completing a dream was sending me a message to complete yet another dream, inspiring me further in my divine purpose. Aunty’s love and faith in me was bridging the realms with a divine gift that anchored me in the limitless and unconditional love of God. It was a strong reminder that we can turn our cants into cans and that we are all beautiful, strong and invincible.
I realized cancer teaches us our greatest strengths and even those it consumes on this earth, live on to become invincible teaching us for eternity.
MY LIFE: From 1995 - 2010 I was purpose driven. Amassing all the material things one could have and achieving all the goals I set for myself in my business. I was and still am a driven person. I missed a lot in those years- birthdays and weddings and friendships that fell by the wayside because I had no time. I even forgot my own wedding anniversary once.
A beautiful life grew out of control as the pressure to perform mounted. By 2010 the pressure had grown to my breaking point - it was almost impossible to do all I had to in a normal day. I owned rental houses and flipped properties, I had 2 real estate offices and many many employees, an electrical contracting business and 2 sick elderly parents, a demanding husband and way too many things. Life was unraveling. When I lost my parents and I got cancer, things began to change inside me. As life and grief does to many of us it shifted me. The Universe slowed me so I could see clearly.
Cancer was my awakening. It was the tipping point that brought incredible loss and incredible triumph. I learned a deeper way of life and realized that I had not ever been fully present before. When faced with ones own mortality and impermanence shit gets real! I became understanding of a heart I had ignored, I embraced the vulnerability and fear I had always squashed with steely resolve. As I had to depend on the kindness of strangers to save my life - I felt my human condition in the soft places where I had before pretended to be super human. My determination was now to feel all the things I had been determined to make numb before. For the first time, I allowed myself deep breath and introspection. I began a journey steered by my heart. I left the safety of a ship my ego created and went swimming for a better one with real meaning. I dove deep into an ocean. I found a life that was finally about me, not the doing and getting and chasing and pleasing of the others. I slowly slowly stopped the wheel of shame and grief that had been silently invisibly spinning me all my life. I now saw what was visible. I now saw life was about more and that we are not driven by purpose but we become the purpose we are meant to be.
By finding myself - the real one not the one running from my fears, I found purpose. Purpose that had its root in the world not just me. My purpose became to put love where there is none. By 2014 I had completely stopped the world as I had previously known it. I meditated and did healings and connected with readings and took months off, no work, no schedule and no one to please, and nothing to do. It was beautiful to do "nothing" but feed my spirit and let my psychic gifts come forward unleashed. I backpacked and walked by the ocean ate ice cream and took naps and continued my spiritual studies full on. I met amazing people and traveled and danced and laughed and did Yoga. Nothing drove me but what my heart wanted. After such a high powered life in the 3D world I had fully achieved 5D status! it was amazing and free.
But I am an extreme person. So, eventually as it had before the pendulum swung too much in the opposite direction. I started to grow lazy and too soft without any structure at all I was a bit lost yet completely grounded. But I had no plan no future direction and that did not feel right. Money was getting low and I was sleeping in too much and getting bored. I started to question my bohemian hippy like indulgences and realize I needed balance of some kind. Was I being wasteful of my talents? Should I be out in the world more?
Of course, that is when the Universe unexpectedly called. It made me an offer I could not refuse. An offer that gave me stability and the chance to blend my old high powered career with my heart. It offered a way to help people achieve goals and empower lives while gaining financial stability. I was a bit hesitant - this would entrench me back in the 3 D world and I had this fantasy of working in the 5th dimension.
I decided to do it. I dusted off my suits and hung up my back pack to go back to the rooms where I had once been. The rooms where egos are grown and deals are made and people jockey for recognition on the throne of competition. I took the position I currently work at. I challenged myself to go back to the halls of "me first" and " fight to the death" and bring a different energy there. I challenged myself to go there and remain me - true to my soul.
I promised I would find a way to do both.
My personal office sits in the middle of sterile and bland corporate America. It is decorated beautifully with inspiring quotes and pretty pictures and low lighting and meditation music playing all day. It doesn't really fit in with the motif. And I don't care! It is a real place in a world of the unreal. It is an oasis in the desert. Strange things happen here.
Officially on the outside anyone walking in would see an executive. I am looked up to and sought after for career advice, I am Senior Vice President and I settle disputes and make decisions and train and educate. But to be honest none of that means much to me except that I am proud of my hard work and grateful God gave me the brain I have. Other than that it has no significance for me.
What is significant to me is that since taking the position I have done things I never did at work before. People are somehow drawn to me and my space. I find myself often drying tears, listening to personal stories, inspiring change, lighting a way, changing lives. Co workers - light workers in disguise are coming in asking "you are a healer, aren't you"? "You seem to know things" "You have an energy about you" "who are you". Among us there are reiki workers, psychics, feng shui experts, seers, visionaries etc... some days my mouth hangs open in disbelief. The things and synchronicity that occur are unbelievable.
I sit in my little corner of the world and I see it all unfolding before me. This new world. It is our world the world of every one of us and it is not about me or you it is about US!
I marvel at where God has brought me. Some days just when the 3D world seems to be strangling me something occurs that shows me I am meant to be here for now. The pixie dust is raining down on me, this place and everyone in it. And I know it is that way in many places such as this all over the universe.
The first holiday season I was here there were no decorations and not much cheer except the obligatory office party which was a rather solemn affair. This past year there was a big tree and decorations and merry making and silly pictures and love. Its flowing here now with laughter and compassion is finding its way in. It is beautiful to watch.
There are times I am still the barracuda in the business world when I have to be,but now I do so always being true to my heart.
I still go home and meditate and do my Reiki circles and readings. I make time to write the books soon to be published. At times the 3D world demands more of my attention than I want it to, like when I have a quarterly meeting event or deadline. I neglect calling friends back and I miss things I would like to do , I fall behind on my writing and spiritual studies. I know that is wrong friends get mad and I get frustrated. In my humanness I must sometimes choose and my choices are not infallible. But I usually correct that as soon as I am able. I am still trying to find balance. I try to stay true to my goal of creating a spiritual community and inspiring the world through writing and video. The time I spend at this endeavor is my classroom and my content platform. I am building my audience my followers and creating the space that hopefully will eventually allow that goal. I am on my path.
My path is like many. Whatever our daily life is we can bring our spirit to it and enlighten ourselves and others just by being love. That is the purpose of this world. I understand that now. Whether we do that on a mountaintop or wherever. Love the place you're in!
The other day a woman came up to me in the ladies room and said "You know you changed my life, that conversation we had a few months ago". I'd be lying if I said this high powered executive barracuda didn't lock herself in a stall and start crying. I was crying because it was a beautiful moment. But mostly I cried because I felt so blessed that God gave me such a fulfilling life. I have cried from shame and jealousy and loss. I have grieved so much I thought I had no tears left. Out of all those tears shed, the ones I feel the most deeply are the tears of humility. I am so humbled that I get to see what is real in this world. I hardly deserve to see such beauty and yet I am rewarded with it often. That makes me cry the hardest to feel such GRACE!
And something tells me this scene is playing out all over corporate America and the world. The world is changing or maybe its always been this way and I never knew!
Sending the intention of beautiful heightened awareness out to all of you...
Peace and love,
FROM MY JOURNAL
Saturday October 11, 2014 - 4:42 PM
It's not easy to straddle these two worlds. I struggle at times. I could use the support, talks, insights of some of those friends and friendships that have fallen away. But it is not to be. Not today anyway. Today, I stand alone with one foot in each world. Trying to choose like a boomerang with no will, between old ego and new heart. Seeing inside the space between what curiously can't be real and is, and what I thought was real and is not. I sit here desolate with nothing to keep me company but the winds of change. Confused and lonely not sure where I am going. A breeze constantly swirls about me. I find a soft place under the tree of my life as it sheds its leaves of divine love upon me. The leaves swirl with understanding and with fear yet I play in them like a child enthralled yet leery. Meditation has become my amusement and my source of connection. It makes my life my teacher and friend. I wish to share it. The wonder and reward of it all deserves companions. This transformation deserves connection. Most times there are none.
I feel a curious sense of anticipation, like I am waiting for an old friend to arrive- yet at the same time there is a patient acceptance of time flowing as it should. My discomfort from the isolation and loneliness is becoming comfortable. I am not sure how that can be - it just is. I feel small as though I am a mere piece in a larger plan yet so special to be part of whatever plan is unfolding. I suffer yet I am pleased to be here. I realize this is transformation and for the first time in my life I am experiencing trust. I trust this time. I trust this experience. My soul can feel the old friend I await is peace. I know him not from this life but from before. Peace. He is coming...
I trust my suffering will end. I know my resurrection is somewhere behind all this pain. This mini crucifixion is not a curse. Faith tells me it is a blessing. I have chosen like so many others to transform into grace. The process is not for the weak of heart. I have been in turmoil for so long now. But In my darkest hours faith is beginning to replace fear. And so in those darkest hours I can now see the light of grace. The love of Spirit. I am starting to see the way out of this loneliness and shame I have felt forever. For the first time in my life there is calm. I now know what trust is. I trust myself.
I have come to understand I will always straddle two worlds. The real and the unreal, but now they have switched places. The things I can not see are more important and real than those I can. My strength does not come from what I can touch but what I feel. My authentic power comes from knowing everything in this moment is exactly as it should be. I accept my suffering. I accept my harmony. Home has become my heart and I can live anywhere trusting each moment.
I now know how to LET IT BE. I play that song daily - it is a meditation of sorts. It makes me feel in my core the sweet anticipation of the great things to come. Once your soul remembers its power the nights are not so dark and life becomes intensely beautiful even the suffering.
Thank you God for your grace. I cherish what you teach me and I promise to share it.
Peace and love,
I am a yogi. Yes, I consider myself that, even when I am out of my practice. "Out of my practice" means I am out of time or out of sync or simply doing "other work" and I neglect my ritual of aligning this soul and honoring this body. I miss my "normal" then. I am most home in the dimly lit rooms of incense and meditation music. My body craves a bare floor, the thin mat, the awakening of my limbs and the flashes of wisdom that come during Savasana. Yoga is my best friend and greatest teacher.
A lifestyle change made going to my yoga studio nearly impossible when I took a great career position but one that made me a 9-5er.
For the first time in forever I began to lead a sedentary life. Sitting behind a desk coming home to dinner and bed. After a year of this cycle, I was not only depressed in my mind and spirit but my body was soft and out of breath. I was desperate for the beautiful alignment of energy I was used to.
The practice of yoga had taught me so much about the merging of the soul with the physical body and with our mind. My current period of misalignment and deprivation taught me how powerful that alignment can be for every facet of our beautiful beings. Feeling out of alignment was awful. I was miserable. I felt sad, weak and started to become very negative and grumpy! I even found myself aggressive in traffic and eye rolling at people's comments. Who was I becoming?
I realized I felt complete restriction. Not only was I not moving my body, I wasn't living to my full potential. My mind and spirit had no expansion. I was not in a structured routine, but in a sad rut! Time kept passing this way and soon I was in this routine for 2 years.
Something had to change. I craved fresh air and freedom but was often to tired to even walk in the park. I needed something- so I booked a vacation. It dawned on me one day as I carried my heavy briefcase into the office and got out of breath doing so, that traveling and carrying luggage may be difficult.
For some odd reason Spirit directed me to start "working out". Yes, working out... like at a real gym. "But, I am a yogi", I thought, "peaceful and quiet in my practice".
It was a silly moment... Part of me will never learn not to argue with Spirit!
So, of course, I found myself in the gym. Upon arriving my first thoughts were- it is very bright and few people are smiling and no one hugs you. Very different from the yoga studio and its loving community. Loud music is constantly pulsating- no Dueter or Steven Halpern here....
This place is about appearance and sculpture and the way you look to other people. Its about muscle definition and healthy bodies. Its about achieving goals and pushing limits, its about judgement and flaws. BUT in deeper study it has much in common with yoga. They both focus on sensation and teach you about your body and mind and soul ...if you let them.
Neither one is good or bad, better or worse for you - its about what you need, when you need and what works for you based on where you are in your life. I realize this is why Spirit brought me here. To see another side in my personal development. This is another significant side to my evolution. I open to the experience and decide to honor whatever wisdom awaits me here.
I accept, observe, explore and I don't resist. I want to make the best of my time here in this bright noisy place and optimize this lesson. Since I am an extreme personality- I hire a personal trainer ( thank you 9-5 job) . May as well go for it! I observe the synchronicity and irony in that.
Soon...Early mornings are spent on machines and doing squats and lifting weights. My trainer is as adept at seeing the signs and sensations of my breath and movement as any yogi. I tune in as I would in the ashram and find sensations and muscle energy I never felt before. My mind starts to open and my heart starts to connect like it used to in the slow methodical movements of a yoga flow just with a bit more speed and assertion. These are very different feelings and reactions but no less satisfying. It isn't long before I find metaphor here for my life, just as I have for years in my yoga practice.
Here too in the bright, noisy, crowded place I find in myself the courage to try, the determination to push, the will to feel more and the awakening to understand what this is teaching me thru my physical energy. My body becomes a blackboard for my mind, writing lessons on my limbs and muscles that are really for my spirit. I realize this primer has been the same for eons. My ancestors have learned the same way. For centuries man has struggled and triumphed on yoga mats and swinging hammers, through tai chi and weight lifting, by martial arts and Olympics. It is all the same.
Connection. Movement. Breathe. Life. Human. Body. Wisdom. Spirit. Alignment.
We find wisdom in the quickening of our breathe and the joy of breaking boundaries. We realize life can be limitless if we choose to break the leashes we put around our own necks. When can'ts become cans even in the smallest way, we learn so much. We expand every part of ourselves in this place. The rewards are deep and personal. They put us in balance with ourselves and our own worth.
It becomes little about the waist line and the tight ass and more about our interior and self worth based on strength and alignment with the gift of this precious life. Every breath every movement becomes a tribute of gratitude as we honor our whole body not just the physical vessel. It's all so much deeper than that.
I am a yogi. I labeled myself that. I was intimidated by the bright lights of that gym. My yoga practice was so personal I thought it was reserved for those dimly lit rooms with exotic music and incense. I couldn't picture myself sweating in the 3D world with a headset blaring music. Such judgement of myself served NO purpose. It is a lesson I carry over now to many things. Especially evident as I have "aha" moments on the elliptical with Eminem blasting. Those moments are no less profound than the ones I have in yoga with singing bowls aligning my flow. Life has many flavors- if you open your mouth to taste. We must open the mouth of our home of chi - life!
My trainer works me hard. Sometimes she will say "ok you are done" if she sees me in challenge with a task even if I have a couple of reps left. I often say to her "NO, I will finish because I must honor my body." Pushing limits is the same in every aspect of your life and it has wonderful rewards.
I remember the second day I was at the gym and my trainer took me over to the elliptical machine. I never did the elliptical in my whole life. I would watch others on it and just know I was the one who would break my neck and make a fool of myself on that contraption. With horror I said "OH NO! That is the boogey man of the gym". She laughed but I was serious. She made me do it. I hated it, it was so hard! I feared losing my grip or footing and flying into the next aisle in a heap of vertigo and bruises. But something inside me made me want to conquer it and with her showing me I felt like I could. And as always when your mind thinks you have a chance- your spirit takes over and soon the body responds. And so, I did it, I conquered the "boogeyman".
I have conquered many boogeymen in my life - but conquering that machine reminded me who I was. In fact now I do about 30 minutes on it daily with no prompting I reach for it myself and kind of enjoy it. That is a wow! For years I have been safely restricted on a treadmill watching people on that Elliptical from afar. What a great lesson!
I look around my gym ( yes I said MY gym) and there are all shapes and sizes, ages and sexes. I don't think working out is as much about appearance as people think. I think it is about mind and spirit for most people. Just ask the 80 year old who treadmills and goes to Zumba.
Yoga was never about the way I looked. It was always about expanding my emotional and spiritual essence and becoming content and peaceful in accepting myself and others without judgement and anxiety. It teaches me to be strong in every way through physical movement. In fact, yoga taught me to detach from compliments and criticism equally. By understanding the difference between the real and unreal. No one's opinion or judgement on my appearance makes any difference to me at all. For me, life became about feeling and sensation. Even what I take in my body for sustenance is not about taste but about how it makes me feel. I rarely crave anything when I am in alignment with my mind. body. spirit.
I had judged the gym to be unreal and superficial and in some ways I feared it. I now love the gym and I have a goal that is a metaphor for my life. I find many of the same benefits I did from yoga just in a different flavor. I am building my physical body to accomplish this certain goal and will write about it when I have done so. I now have incorporated yoga into my routine too. How beautiful it is to cross the bridge to both.
I am a not only yogi and not only a gym rat I am a beautiful human who no longer lives by labels or appearances. I now realize nothing is at it appears. Judgments are fear. Limits are illusions. And most of all it is not about how life looks but the significance it brings you when you look a little deeper and open to it!
Peace and love,
It is said the journey from the head to the heart is the longest journey. That may be true. It takes a long time and many miles to merge ego and soul, but it can not be measured by either clock or kilometers. It's length is metered out by the yards of connections that pave the road from cool thoughtful logic to pumping hot emotion and back again. The circular drive older than our incarnation. In fact, as old as creation itself. Our universe all began with a spark of light, created when thought met emotion. All this from that. All that within each of us.
I have been heartless at times. When ego ruled hard from quick cold logic and softer "weaker" feelings were smothered under shovels of heavy conditioning and "supposed to be's". Goals were written for me and never sincere. "Never let them see you sweat", "Be an example" and "There is no such word as can't", "Keep crying and I will give you something to cry about" were the childhood mantras that molded my survival and safe identity. It is natural I developed a steely determination and over achievement that pushed out all empathy. My Father wanted it so. His own fear of vulnerability raised a very strong daughter. Success was gained, goals met, wars won, but I never really felt any of it. I lived only in my head, nothing ever traveled down much farther. I had a road block to the highway of my heart.
Many of us have road blocks. It's not until some lightning strikes our heart that we realize it. Lightning has many properties. It can bring joy or loss, burn or ignite. I suppose our individual " lightning" experiences have much to do with Karma and little to do with the way we think things "should be". You see, lightning is always unexpected and powerful. It's electric and its main purpose is to get our attention and shed light on something before plunging us back to the dark.
Some of us are deep in the dark and so we don't get a bolt of lightning we get a lightning storm to wake us from the depths of our apathy and judgement. I was a hard case, so I got a barrage, a lightning storm that lasted a long time.
In the end that intensity "lightened" my heart brighter. It gave me the capacity to love deeper. I have so much love now that I sometimes don't know what to do with it all. Yet, I would never trade that empathy for anything in the universe. I feel things now, deeply, wholeheartedly. The beauty from the emotions in my heart far outweighs anything my ego and mind ever accomplished.
Yes, the journey from head to heart is amazing and outrageous and so, so very hard- but it is our purpose.
Someone I once knew was in the struggle of this journey. His head prevented him from even saying the words "I love you". I imagine that is quite a painful road block. He once asked me "Do you think I am capable of love?"
Of course, I knew he was. I had felt it in his touch, seen it in his eyes and shared it in his deep laughter. I witnessed it in his gift of time with me and in his empathy for my dog and for me in my own times of need. He was steady and strong and kind, yet here he was doubting his capacity for what he was born to do. Love.
That doubt and fear blocked his road to love. I knew the traffic jam well, I had been around its bend. It took an army of angels and every ounce of courage I had to help me break through. My emotions from his question overwhelmed me so much. I could only hug him in response. I remember putting my hand on his back by his heart and quietly infusing my love there as he held me. I was gifting him with love that would stay on his journey even if I was no longer on his road. I wanted him to know deep abiding love with a partner. I hoped it would be me, but my love had no boundary and I more so hoped he would find it in whatever place he would know its amazing spirit and limitless joy. Love, you see, is not about me but simply about love. My heart simply wanted his heart to sing. My head was no where in sight and had no stake in the game.
MY road from head to heart was complete, unblocked and flowing for me. I could now never live any other way. From then on my love would flow freely in everything I did.
All the trauma I had..all the lightening that struck me opened my heart to feelings. Those experiences created my heart, filled it with recognizable sensations. Every lesson of forgiveness, love, empathy, compassion and joy whether harsh or gentle created my heart. All of it now flows from me for and into others so they too find their hearts. Every scar is a river bed where love flows up to meet another who has swum in the same river. Connections that we are meant to share. Connections that are the reason we are all united within each other. LOVE.
The journey from head to heart is paved by emotion. Paved by sadness and joy and loss and abundance. It is meant to teach us to feel. If you are in the struggle of this journey focus on your experiences. Step into the "lightning" to feel the Lightening. Do not fear it, it is meant to light your awakening and lighten your heart. Those jolts and bolts of lightning give you a glimpse of the dark so you know where to go. ....
Follow your lightening..straight to your beautiful heart!
Peace and Love,
Finding oneself forty something and suddenly and unexpectedly single after a long marriage is heart breaking beyond description. I know because it happened to me. It's like being thrown off the beloved horse you've been riding all your life. Without warning an extended part of you unceremoniously dumps you off and the extension of your every move is gone. Your "everything" is riding away from you into a sunset you will never share. Frozen in disbelief, shattered to realize the ying to your yang is no more, a desolation seeps into every nook and cranny of your being. Hallow has a new meaning as it becomes your state.
You stand numb and paralyzed in an empty field staring out after your life for a long time until a new reality rides up. The new reality is the survival stage and you climb willingly into its bouncy coach and slide atop the cold leather seat, searching for who knows what. As the Survival Coach takes you across mountains and rocky roads and barren wasteland, you just hold on, mostly because you have no place else to go. I spent several years of my life there.
It's a long ride. You get what you need along the way. Each place with its divinely orchestrated cast is an earth school experience, in a whatever gets you through the night existence. Bitter and sweet, dumb and smart, pain and comfort, anger and love, all just stops along the way.
Emotions once feared become a tonic. Hysteria tastes like champagne as laughter and tears flow uncorked and their release creates a heady oasis in your desert. With nothing left to lose and no one left to judge you, finally you are free. An erratic and puzzling kind of free but freedom nonetheless. Loneliness is a great teacher, a master of our fate teaching us to face great fear among life's rapids.
Wants and desires, aftertastes and discards, it all becomes the energy in motion that eventually shakes the desolation out of you. Irony has a universal way of cleansing your core, revealing your beautiful soul. You meet the real you out on this road and finally honor her amazing being. This journey teaches you to become your own "everything" revealing that you are "enough".
One day you wake up and the wheels of the Survival Stage squeak to a stop and when the door opens you jump out for the last time. The desert has given way to lush green fields and you are ready to see the new horizon. It doesn't hurt to look at it anymore. In fact the sun is rising, peaking through and you can see some wild horses in the distance, free and grateful... like you!
As the sun shines on your new existence you admire every inch of the skin you are no longer afraid to live in. And so, armed with the "everything" that is you, you set out to find another whose "everything" is him. After all, two "enoughs" will be more than enough.
Once open to the search for other, new lessons begin. A different journey unfolds, one you are in control of. Your choices cause comedy, drama and whimsical tragedies to abound, weaving tales of dating games and misfit toys. Separating the men from the boys is never easy. Truth be told its daunting and stupid and sometimes painful. I expect its the same for them in their search for grown ups. Maybe separating silly girls from women is just as excruciating.
"Middle age dating" is a synonym for "I ain't got time to waste". Our fear is in charge from the beginning. We mistakenly allow ego and instinct to create our list of wants and check boxes. We are worried about being old and alone from the start, so, we approach dating skeptically. Men go after what looks good and are confused when like a shiny sports car, who is all show and no go, it winds up lacking the substance they require. Women travel in packs and lament how there are "no good men"! Men are hunters. All hunters know never approach a pack, its dangerous. Rule #1, you have to separate from the herd, if you want to be fair game.
The old safety in numbers approach only works for the scripts on "the Golden Girls".
Our lists of relationship wants read like letters to Santa full of fantasy and bling.
Ladies: "I want a guy who is good looking with dark hair and financially stable with a good job and no baggage and who likes to go out nice places and is very secure in himself and has great relationships with his kids." But, are you all those things? Because why would a guy who has it all together want to be with you if you have a mountain of bills, a suitcase full of baggage, aggravating disrespectful kids and you have to ask if you look fat everyday?
Gentleman: "I want a girl who is nice looking with a great body and an amazing cook and who is super sexy in bed and isn't a gold digger or drama queen, someone independent who understands I need my time with the guys." But are you all those things? Because why would a great looking girl with a hot body want a guy with a beer belly who can't even cook her a nice dinner and causes jealous drama when she wants a night out with her girls?
How silly it is to want in another the things we can not accomplish ourselves. We must first become what we need and desire in another to attract it into our lives. Whatever it is you desire- financial security, good family relationships, interesting hobbies... we must first be. Our checklists are better written from our hearts and souls than from instinct and ego. But understanding that is a journey all onto itself. Unfortunately few of us ever realize that. And so the circutus serial dating life driven by false beliefs and quick fixes controls us.
Our time and energy are better spent working on becoming our own "everything" before seeking it elsewhere.
For instance, if you are still wallowing about what your ex did to you, have an unreasonable jealous streak, trust no one. fly off the handle with unreasonable anger, have a drinking or eating disorder, terrible relationships with siblings and children, bouts of depression. need constant attention or have childhood issues... you may want to work on those things before you try to find a relationship to make them better. Otherwise you will find yourself in the world of serial dating as relationship after relationship doesn't work out.
We don't need to be a perfect specimen, but I do believe we need to be in the "healthy " zone before the rest of our healing may be done in relationship with another.
I don't pretend to be an expert on finding Mr. Right but here are a few of my keen observations from the last few years of dating and not dating:
Not dating is a big deal and I highly recommend it for a long period of time. Date yourself for at least a year to a year and a half. No sex, no dates, just be alone. Enjoy friends strictly platonic and same sex. Do things you always wanted to do but alone. This will be the best time of your life getting to know yourself without influence. Its hard at first but nothing gets you more ready for "Mr. Right". Trust me. If you have the guts to do this on purpose its tough but so worth it. And yes, I turned down many dates during this period- honoring my commitment to myself was more important. Being truly alone I became my best friend. It was something I never took the time to do and it was too long overdue to be ignored. And this is what my best friend taught me:
Don't date anyone unless you really like yourself. You can't like anyone else if you don't like yourself! I have found that the best relationships happen when you really like the other person- I'm not talking about the sexual attraction I'm talking about sincerely "like" them! This is key for sustaining any connection. You have to like who they are. It creates a flow. This more than good sex, makes you want to spend time with them. You really get to know someone on a deeper more compatible level when you "like" them.
Don't have sex unless you like looking at yourself naked in the mirror. Sex works better when you are naked and uninhibited. If you are trying to cover up or distracted by thoughts of insecurity sex will probably suck. You have to Love your body in order to love another body. Accept yourself and know how beautiful you are. Authentic Intimacy and deep connection can't happen if you are trying to hide something.
Love your life and be joyful from within. If you are not in a positive place no relationship you have will be either. Your negativity will seep into your partnership. Fix your life before sharing it with another. Someone who dates you to clean up your mess is a janitor or handyman not a partner. Its a recipe for disaster.
Clear your life of the debris from your past. If ex's are calling, texting or taking you to dinner and flirting and it feels like a "maybe" say bye bye. These are not "friends" they are crutches and break glass in case of emergency guys. They serve no point except to feed your weak ego. Get rid of them or weaken your current position with a partner. Sweep the porch to make room for Mr. Right. Like wise with booty calls - Mr. Right is not going to find you in Mr. Wrong's bed. He won't be looking there - so grow up. These place holders take up space that you can use for productive activities. Like getting to know yourself in preparation for Mr. Right!
The exception is - If an "ex" falls into the sincere friend category, and you are both grow ups with a nice connection this can be a nice relationship in your life. But be truthful about your relationship and respect it. Healthy people attract other healthy people.
Get out and live!! You are more apt to find Mr. Right in life doing what you love. If you love hiking or boating or baseball or meditation - do it and find a mate there because it forms a foundation for you to really "like" each other. Get out and be passionate about activities. The more active you are the more interactive your life is with people. The more people you are in touch with the more possiblity to meet Mr Right!
Know thyself! Know who you are before allowing another into your life. This is where dating yourself for a long time is key. Knowing your faults and strengths honestly helps you discern the right partner on a much deeper level. When you can discern during the initial phase of getting to know someone and then later during conflict what is real and what you need to own and what is not yours to own, it makes you less mutable. Being mutable in a relationship never works. You have to be your authentic self. You can't play a role or be scared to speak up in a loving and kind way. You must represent yourself authentically and with honor. Honoring oneself means admitting fault but also not backing down in a loving and respectful way when necessary. We can't allow ourselves to take on another's baggage. Knowing what is our work to do and what is another's is the balance of a good relationship. You can't have that unless you know yourself strongly without doubt.
Be able to receive and give equally! Love is a give and take energy flow. You must be able to give love and receive love in equal measure. This goes for giving and receiving help and allowing someone to share your life- it must be equal reciprocity with a partner. Work on removing any blockages you have to balancing these energies. Be honest when evaluating the balance you share with another. An unbalanced relationship will never end well.
Open your heart! Finally the most important aspect of all to finding Mr. Right is an open heart. Love. If your heart is open and you ARE love you react differently to life. You are less reactive and more compassionate. You are able to see another's shortcomings with patience and understanding. You are more patient with yourself too. This does not mean you accept bad behavior. It means you do not allow it to disturb you peace of mind while you respond to it. Never loving to your own detriment means honoring yourself and the work you have done to be healthy by discerning what is for your highest good. Love is always the answer. Love yourself this way and the rest will come. When we are the ultimate partner to ourselves, the ultimate partner comes to us.
Don't live with one eye on the door waiting for Mr. Right. Go about your business and do the hard work of becoming the best you possible. Truly enjoy all life offers you and be in gratitude for it. Then watch what happens. The universe will respond in kind!
Peace and love,
So are you suddenly seeing 11:11 more often on the clock... or maybe you seem to be seeing the same sequential numbers on license plates, store receipts, phone numbers etc.. Why? What does it mean?
Well let's start with the 11:11 phenomenon. Most people will start to see this number or notice it more often at a time in their life when they are becoming more aware of the spiritual nature of life. Others see this sequence when the energy of something or someone is coming in to their life to get them to notice Spirit and the deeper meaning of connection and a higher source of love and existence. Either way this phenomenon is the universe trying to get you to "OPEN" to your true soul.
In fact seeing 11:11 is is very common for people who are on the verge of a breakthrough in their consciousness. Or it is being shown them because the Universe wants them to have a breakthrough to a higher consciousness. How we respond is up to us and our free will. Let me assure you this is not a coincidence- the Universe is indeed trying to get your attention. Universe as in Source of creation..Spirit..Angels..Buddha..God whatever personal belief resonates with you.
Why 1111? Well the number has a high significance and vibration. Unlike when we see a number we have assigned to a departed love one, like a birth date or other significator, 11:11 is an all higher power.
Think about it- the number 1 is the Initiator - Creation - God all knowing and divinity, the first , the beginning. What better number to call out to you... 1 = God 1= creation -1= start anew 1 = take your first breath.
So 11:11 signifies a new beginning, a life change ordained by God, the beginning of a new path.
Some think of the symbolism as 2 doors 11 11 to symbolize our decision to walk through them to our divine purpose and full potential. This is a sign that the Universe wants to co - create something with you and give you its blessing.
Often people start to see this number sequence after a trauma or challenging time as a sign Spirit is giving you support to start a new path - one with His divine presence somehow incorporated in your life. Whether that is a new career or just becoming more aware of Spirit daily is up to you and what feels right.
This phenomenon started to happen to me several years ago in such a repetitive way it was impossible to ignore. I was in a time of crisis and at first it scared me but then I realized if I just relaxed and asked myself what I felt when I saw it that - it was a wonderful and comforting energy.
When I meet people who are not particularly Spiritual and they start to spend time in my energy it's not long before they come to me and it kinda goes something like this "I keep seeing the same time on the clock everyday, what does that mean?" or 'Hey I keep seeing ones" and I always say "Oh like 11:11?" And they say "OMG How did you know that?" I laugh now because it's very predictable. Spirit wants them to open and that is why He has brought them into my energy. I am a teacher, aware of our connection to each other, I light the way. They will spread light and teach me. As we all do for each other. I contentedly wonder then what we will learn from one another and the gems yet to come!
Each year when the calendar comes around to 11:11 it is a good day to start new things or just be contemplative and go within. The number 11 is a master number that is associated with faith and Psychic Ability. 11 is also a very strong number that signifies the creation and completion of goals. So 11=creation plus 11= completion is VERY powerful! It is a day when Spirit's energy is high and it is easier to delve into your true heart and soul to see truth and gain clarity as the Universe wants you to see things. Where the planets are aligned is different each year and gives things a different aspect . This year 2017 is great for creativity and a particularly strong portal of energy is being released to help us be creative. So recommit to projects and start new things!
If you are seeing 11:11 connect with your feelings when this is shown you. What is your first thought? Is there a change you have to make? Is there something you have been wanting to do but put off? Is there a question about life that has been unanswered for a long time? Or is Spirit saying hello and giving you confirmation because you have done what the Universe expects of you? If your first thought is of a passed love one that is OK - perhaps Spirit is using that to get your attention and let you start to believe in the "other side', but usually this is not a communication from a departed loved one. They come in other ways which I will talk about in my next blog. 11:11 is a much higher and deeper calling and it is about YOU not anyone else!
Blessings for a beautiful November 11th!
Peace and Love,
The planet of luck, Jupiter spends about a year in each sign and October 10th it moves from Libra into Scorpio. This is more than likely great energy and good luck for anyone who is born in Scorpio as Jupiter spends the next 12 months bringing good tidings your way.
However, Jupiter is an expansive energy. It likes to enlarge and expand anything it comes in contact with. So, if you have any Scorpion issues that are not progressing forward this planet may now expand that energy and bring it up in a way so that it can no longer be ignored. By doing so the universe wants it resolved for your higher good. So work with Jupiter to bring out the good and take benevolent action. In short Jupiter wants you to make lemonade out of your lemons.
This energy effects everyone in some way. To find out how it effects you, look at your birth chart. You can download one for free at astro.com by knowing the time, place and date of your birth. Your chart will look like a pie cut into 12 slices these slices are your "houses". Each one of the 12 zodiac signs resides in one of your houses, find the house of Scorpio and there you have the area of your life that will be influenced by Jupiter moving through Scorpio for the next 12 months. Each house represents an area of your life. The chart below simplifies this:
Additionally each planet has traits that are its personality or energy in the way it influences us. For instance the Sun is bright - it is light, power, illumination, strength. It makes sense that it symbolizes life. Jupiter is a big happy planet that likes to expand and bring luck to things.
Each zodiac sign also has traits - Scorpio is the Scorpion, so lets look at that creatures personality. It' s silent, deadly, secretive, dangerous, powerful, brave, passionately determined and protects itself and it's young fiercely, it brings unexpected change and is not afraid of the underworld. Scorpio likes to dig deep and make us feel emotion. It is provocative. Those born in the sign of Scorpio are often secretive and passionate, they are practical, yet emotional and have an ability to look at the sadder side of life with acceptance. Birth and death are accepted with dignity and equal relevance.
I am a Scorpio moon. This energy makes me passionate and I often say I am able to find beauty in repulsive things and am able to embrace the dark side of life realistically with no judgments. Scorpios are emotional and love to be in touch and connect through deep emotion. An evolved Scorpio is a highly spiritual energy that connects birth to death and accepts sudden change readily and likes to be bold with their truth. An unevolved Scorpio can wallow in the dark murky depths of tragedy and often have hidden agendas. Either way this energy wants us to be in touch with our emotions and share them.
So what does Jupiter expanding the energy of Scorpio in your chart mean for the next 12 months?
With Jupiter in Scorpio we will feel more spiritual, more contemplative within ourselves for the meaning of our life. We will be more quiet, possibly secretive but determined and more passionate about the area influenced. We will be more apt to understand our emotion and want to share our revelations with others t connect more deeply.
This will also bring light to much scandal and things that were hidden as Jupiter expands Scorpios love of the revelation of hidden things. Don't be surprised if some seedy underworld scenarios and plots play out in the national media. Scorpio is nothing if it is not dramatic. Think Game of Thrones - which will become even more popular under this sky.
Jupiter and Scorpio align in search of truth...yours, mine and theirs and they WILL find it! Whether the experience is positive or negative is up to you. Try to embrace your emotions without judgement and do not fear vulnerability. It is in the sharing of our truth that we connect deeply as human beings and learn to love each other.
This is the year of light and dark. But if we keep our mind and actions positive we can take advantage of benevolent and happy Jupiter.
The best way to utilize and tap in to this Scorpion/ Jupiter energy is to allow the beautiful and deep connection to Spirit that is the transforming energy of Scorpio to work with Jupiter to bring truth and constructive and expansive change to your life.
Wherever this falls in your chart be truthful after some self reflection about what this energy has come to show you. Then make a clean break from that which no longer serves you and begin anew from a whole new perspective. Death and rebirth will be a theme this year.
Scorpions are about self preservation, they only sting when they sense danger. Aligned with Jupiter which wants to bring you luck and good things this energy is brought to us to clear out the poison in our lives and bring us what is healthy and lead us to our next level of consciousness.
For instance, for me this happens in my 11th house. I expect to see some changes with groups, friends and social causes I am involved with, but as the old moves on and the new comes in I will learn to accept and welcome changes for my own expansion even if bittersweet. I also intend to use the beautiful spiritual energy of Scorpio while it is expanded in Jupiter to enhance my psychic abilities and expand my spiritual career. I intend to begin gallery style reading events under this influence. So I hope you will all support me in that. I am ready to trust the universe to guide me to my highest good and peak performance. I know my hopes and wishes will come true as I brave the challenges the universe sends me. It is all meant to bring me to my divine purpose in this life. And this energy is coming to do the same for all of you.
Whatever house of your chart Scorpio and Jupiter influence this next 12 months rest assured they are there to bring you good fortune and luck in that area of life, this time is meant to bring you deeper love and more truth in that sector whether that requires a little work - only time will tell. Hold on tight and trust the universe.
Peace and love -
Angels were the first energy that I felt strongly when I began to allow myself to believe in realms other than the earth plane. At first their presence was felt in subtle ways as I still questioned if they were real. Slowly I began to believe. My Catholic upbringing helped but also made it difficult. I reasoned since Angels were in the Bible they were an acceptable source of my trust. But I feared my own knowledge. Was I crazy? Would people think me odd?
My Mother had died a couple of years before I began to experiment and study alternate new age things. She was very religious and I credit her for my faith and spiritual practices although my beliefs are now far from hers and no longer in sync entirely with what she taught me. Somehow I reasoned she would not be displeased at me for studying and praying to Angels. The woman who taught me the Rosary as a child and prayed with me throughout my life
instilled in me the devotion that is the root of all my beliefs today. But she also gave me fear and judgement. Two things that have no place in spiritual growth.
I carried stigmas and I feared blasphemy. I grew up the youngest of 5 children and there was a bit of "Catholic Rigidity". I remember my eldest sister bringing home a Ouija board from college. Us girls huddled secretly in our dark second story bedroom scared out of our wits while we tested its powers. Suddenly my Mother burst in! Hysterical with anger and fear, she threw it out the second story window while chasing us around the room screaming! I don't know which traumatized my 6 year old self more- the Ouija board or my Mom screaming about the devil, but to this day I won't allow a board anywhere near me or my home!
The Angels must have been with me that day long ago because as I hid under the bed my Mom never did catch me! :)
Another time I enlisted my Altar Boy clad, but far from cherubic, older brother to help with my First Holy Communion jitters. I was afraid I would get so nervous as the priest held the host out for my little tongue, that I would forget my response. So I got my brother to "practice" with me. There he was feeding me cheese doodles (which seemed like a good communion wafer substitute at the time) in his altar boy robe reciting "Body of Christ" as I knelt down on our shag carpet in my freshly starched communion veil and blue jeans. Of course, just then my Mother walked in. It's comical looking back now but then it was the first time I heard the word blasphemy. I could tell from the look on Mom's face she was terrified for our behavior. So nonetheless, I grew up feeling very judgmental about spiritual practices. And I am sure between that episode and the Ouija board my Mother thought she was raising a bunch of heathens!
Angels were easy for me to accept without guilt or fear. They were in the bible and pictured all over churches, so they were safe and easy for me to believe in. As soon as I began to study and read about them I could feel their loving presence and strength supporting me in my life. I also began to see signs of them everywhere letting me know I am loved and that hey are always on standby any time I need them.
Angelic energy is soft yet steady, it's airy and light. Each Angel has a different vibration and color. Raphael the healing Angel has a green aura and is often with me during times when my heart aches for something. Archangel Micheal has a blue almost purple aura and comes to give me strength. I learned how to recognize each Angel over time as their essence came into my daily life.
That was a slow process. I kept doubting. They would send me signs and still I would doubt. For instance one day I was driving on the highway wondering if Angels truly existed. I jokingly said, Ok, If Angels are real give me a sign. Suddenly next to me there was a white panel van with "ANGEL ELECTRIC" painted on the side. I have hundreds of examples like that. Often times people with me are shocked when they witness these things. But now I am used to such happening so I just chuckle inside and thank my Angels for their presence. Numbers, names, license plates, random stories, obscure incidents all too much to list have proven that I am meant to believe.
The turning point came one day when I fell down the basement stairs. I was carrying a basket of laundry and I had fuzzy socks on my feet. I slid down the cement steps and landed flat on my back. I was alone in the house, too far from anyone to hear my cries for help. I felt so much pain, I was certain my back was seriously hurt. Suddenly a voice inside me said "you are not alone, call for us". I was crying and I shouted "Angels surround me now, I need you"! A great calm came over me and I relaxed my body. I felt warm and loved. My breathing returned to normal and I slowly got up. I was OK. Stunned but, strangely Ok. Hours later the bruises started to come out. Based on the bruises on my back and legs I could not believe I was n't seriously injured. When I showed a few close friends those bruises they were shocked too, it seemed impossible no breaks or sprains. But that experience showed me I was never alone and I was always in the presence of an Army of Angels that literally have my back when called in.
I urge you to welcome and call in Angels to your life. Doreen Virtue is a famous author and many of her books including Angels 101 will introduce you to these fine light beings. I also studied Angels by choosing a particular Angel each day to work with and study. I would rotate my time with each one until I was familiar with all of them. I did this very seriously for 2 years and now my Angels are a part of my life. This is where the devotion my Mom taught me comes in. A true spiritual practice takes serious devotion and dedication.
Angels only come and help when you ask. They will not intervene unless invited. Simply call out for them when needed and feel the energy come. You must be open to believe in this energy to truly feel its power. Angels are messengers that carry our prayers directly to God. So, through their intervention miracles can happen. It is a good idea to always ask for your highest good to be done. Then, listen and watch for your signs from Angels showing you that they are near. Feathers, music, coins and numbers, random coincidences can all be angelic forms of communication.
If you have any questions about Angels just reach out and ask me. they are one of my favorite subjects and I hope you make them a part of your life!
Peace and love Georgia Rose
Yes it is true we are all psychic!
Although I am not a big fan of the word "psychic" I use it because it is a word people understand. But in truth being "psychic" simply means learning to tune in to senses we all have that are beyond the 5 senses we all use. Its like exercising muscles you forgot you had. We all know that feeling when we go to the gym and our body hurts from using something long dormant.
Well, you have psychic muscles you are not working out and exercising to the best of your ability. Trust me all humans do- we were made to connect to other realms.
It is the evolution of our human species to use frequency and energy to communicate beyond the 5 senses. Look at our expansion as a race through satellites, microwaves, blue tooth and computer communications traveling at instantaneous speeds. Our will and brain capacity has increased over time. Our ingenuity has increased and is evidently sharper in each generation that we birth and create. 10 year old kids are teaching Grandma about technology.
Just as dogs are telepathic and seem to know what each other are thinking we too can communicate without words. Does your dog sense your moods? So do humans often "know something". Its like that sense that someone is looking at you or standing behind you....how do you know? You just do!
It's all about connection. We are able to connect on a level never dreamed of 60 years ago. Our "psychic" senses are more developed than ever before.
Anyone in the Spiritual or Psychic profession will tell you young people now communicate without words. Call them indigo children or gifted - label them whatever you desire but the fact is we are becoming aware and accepting our telepathic abilities as a human race on this earth. Many more people are discovering their ability to connect with other realms and use these multi senses to speak with loved ones and guides. Reiki and many forms of energy healing are now accepted in most major hospitals as actual treatment. I recently had a radiologist ask me to tell him intuitively as a healer what I felt about his patient to help with diagnosis. Meditation is becoming commonplace especially for those under 25. Yoga classes are packed as people realize the connection to these energies takes devotion to universal principles of love and kindness and clarity of mind.
Like any other ability this gift needs work to flourish and be understood. Unwrapping your telepathic ability is a journey through self discovery and wisdom. As you take each step to realize these gifts you begin to connect to each memory of why we are given these "other" senses and you connect to other realms knowing they all have one creator.
Creator energy is love which becomes the source you use for all of your connections - on Earth with other humans and across all realms of creation. Soon you communicate with time, space, Angels, Passed loved ones, Ascended Masters and all beings by connecting your heart to the heart of Spirit - our Creator.
How do you do it? The first step is CLEARING - when you clear out your life of negative and destructive things you change your energy and a clear connection with God/ Spirit/ Creator begins...
It is not long then that you begin to feel sensations of the presence of "others". Perhaps you dream vividly of a loved one who has passed or hear a voice or you begin to receive unmistakable signs. This is your psychic connection "opening". This opening comes as you clear clutter in your life and resolve situations to come to a peaceful and much clearer space.
Without all the clutter and "noise" of earthly distractions you evolve to sense and feel more frequencies and energy than you could before when your life was blocked with clutter aka "bullshit" from these frequencies. Soon you just know things and you are tapped in to the acceptance that you now "see", "hear" and sense things on a deeper level than you ever did before. This is clarity. Colors seem brighter, you feel things deeper everything is heightened smell, sight, hearing, touch in this clear state. Suddenly, you remember those psychic muscles you forgot about as many of these "new" sensations seem familiar somehow.
Soon you may sense Angels or other realms as your meditations get deeper and more vivid. Before long you are having "experiences" and you are filled with the love of all the universe as you realize why we are here. To feel this love and to be love. And you wonder how you ever lived the other way...blocked from all these gifts and beautiful energies.
Yes, being psychic means connecting to love and healing. It is a personal journey of self discovery and finding your soul and it's meaning. No easy task but worth every step!
The best way to discover your abilities is through a course of study with someone who is a master of these things.
I will soon be doing a 4 week course on Multi Sensory Development designed to help you live beyond the 5 senses.
I hope you will join me by clicking the link on this site ..
Together we can expand this world!
Peace and love Georgia Rose
Spiritual Healer, Energetic Medium
This Blog is the story of the miracles, challenges and lessons of my life journey. Years ago when I hit a personal "rock bottom" my despair led me to seek answers and my quest for truth began. Amazing events propelled me on a spiritual journey of transformation.. Miraculously, through these experiences my life has become my teacher and my friend.... I hope my words connect us and allow us to walk together for a time as teacher and friend to each other. The most valuable thing we have during this human experience is our connection to love. The love in our soul for a higher power and others is the only thing that is real. I honor these connections through my writing. Theses words are my gift inspired through the heart of Spirit for you. I hope by sharing my journey it will enlighten, inspire and ease yours as it does mine >> ... Peace... Georgia Rose